and im back. what would happen if we all said exactly what we felt? would there be more war? more hate? more love? more honesty? i think that thre would be more fear. i know that i am terrified of alot of things. being crowds of people. scare me.... losing the people i love, but can never exactly express what i want to say with out scaring myself or them...i'm scared of scaring people..i'm scared of hurting the ones i love, i'm scared of hurting the people i love...i'm scared of making the people i love worry...i notice that all of my fears are for other people...i'm not afraid of my own death, just how it would affect the ones i love...i don't want to hurt anybody, but in turn sometimes i just end up hurting myself...where do you draw the line of fearing for yourself and for other people? where does the line stop of things that you do to protect others, while hurting yourself..am i really doing anybody good like this...would i have no fears if i just didnt have any friends? would i be happier knowing that i'm not hurting anyone but myself? i really need to stop thinking, stop questioning what i will never know...
~whatever happens i love you guys, and i don't mean to hurt anyone~