hello one and all...another blurb by renee........
i crave simplicty, but its not simple at all.its so complicated...maybe its because i make it complicated...i wish that i lived on an island. where it was just me...before i made friends, before my life became complicated with this things in which we call emotions...a place without words...like i love you, anyone can say it. i've decided i'm not going to say that i love you anymore. because someone says it doesn't mean taht its true. what is love anyway? this is what the dictonary says :"A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
. "
well i dont like that...i love you is just 3 words, anyone can utter.i think that its in the way that you show it...i wish that there was no speaking...you had to show everyone what you felt...i strongy dislike the way i live...live by myslef, where i could be simple...no need for clothes, i could dance, sing. i would no one to compare myself too. there would be no self doubt, none of the " oh i suck" stuff. no feeling unwanted, or burdensome...nothing to complicate anything...no people, no anything. none of this stuff that is supposed to make our lives so much easier...i want to live like that...no worring about anything..no feelings of stupidness, or loss, hate, fear, injustice, resentment, longing. i could be really happy like that, no words to complicate life, no worring about what you look like. what people think. people worring about you, worring about others...but i could not do that now, because i have experienced people. my mind has been warped into taht mind frame...
well all that was alot better walking home tonight...i had so much to say, but now i have nothing....
i crave simplicty, but its not simple at all.its so complicated...maybe its because i make it complicated...i wish that i lived on an island. where it was just me...before i made friends, before my life became complicated with this things in which we call emotions...a place without words...like i love you, anyone can say it. i've decided i'm not going to say that i love you anymore. because someone says it doesn't mean taht its true. what is love anyway? this is what the dictonary says :"A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
. "
well i dont like that...i love you is just 3 words, anyone can utter.i think that its in the way that you show it...i wish that there was no speaking...you had to show everyone what you felt...i strongy dislike the way i live...live by myslef, where i could be simple...no need for clothes, i could dance, sing. i would no one to compare myself too. there would be no self doubt, none of the " oh i suck" stuff. no feeling unwanted, or burdensome...nothing to complicate anything...no people, no anything. none of this stuff that is supposed to make our lives so much easier...i want to live like that...no worring about anything..no feelings of stupidness, or loss, hate, fear, injustice, resentment, longing. i could be really happy like that, no words to complicate life, no worring about what you look like. what people think. people worring about you, worring about others...but i could not do that now, because i have experienced people. my mind has been warped into taht mind frame...
well all that was alot better walking home tonight...i had so much to say, but now i have nothing....
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