of course i will make you feel loved stina, cause you know i do! well lets see what to blog about...well today i cleaned my house!! fun fun, you all know how i love that!!! (its sad because i go over to other peoples and clean. ask stina!) then i went to see danielle my sister! we always have a goodtime...if your ever feeling not so great about yourself, then go hang out with a little kid because they think that youre the greatest person ever to live!!! my uncle alice drove me home and we picked up charly on the way back to my place..(my uncle calls me martha, so i call him alice) and we went and called people to see if they wanted to play pool with us, but no one did. so we went anyway, and had fun...he kicked my ass at pool, but i kicked his ass at fooseball...my T.O game!!! anyway, then in the wind and rain/hail we walked up to walmart...he wanted to get an anime.bu tit wasnt there, so we bought a 2 liter pop insted...and walked back to his house which is right by the school...so it was a long walk, trying to keep eachother out of traffic...it was really funny, but also so very sad...we have good times...charly's great! he never makes me feel bad, or stupid, or anything...he's always full of compliments...like tonight for example, we were talking about school, and i told him how i can write a story and think that its amazing, and be so proud of myself, i guess...and then get 60% on it...but he likes my poetry. then i was singing on the way home, and he was just"wow renee you're really good at singing!" and i dont know it means alot to me...i like to think that i'm good at singing...well i know i dont suck, so thats something! maybe someday in the distance future, i'll have me singing on here and get some feed back...maybe, but at the moment i'm still trying to get around to haveing the picture page up and going...



well some people have been asking about the feminism thing...well here i go, i will try to explain to you how i feel about this, and such...well actually not right now, i'm not fired up enough to explain it properly, so that it makes sense to anyone but me...



what else can i say... my privicy has once again been invaded with my sister reading my blog....damn her!!! we've all made it clear, DO NOT GO TO THE BLOGS IN THE HISTORY!!! has we all like our privicy...
anyway, i've decied taht i'm quitting all drugs and alchol as of thursday...last thursday...whitby thursday...because they have messed with my brain enough... i'm coming off a strong dosage of medication, adn going on an even stronger one...it just doesnt help...i know that it does affect my relationships with other people...people that i would never want to hurt in a million years...you guys know who you are...(my bestfriends!) and i just dont like it anymore...i dont want to have to worry about all that shit. so please help me stick with my plans in times of weakness!



i've decided that in my short life time i have done some things that i ma really proud of...and now i wil list them...
1) played on a all boys team
2) over came my pain killer addiction
3) i've loved, adn will continue to do so
4) i've stuck with the french immersion
5) i've dealt with my varies problems, not always in the best ways, but hey, im getting better!
6) i've coped with losing my dream of becoming an olyimpic altheate
7) sports...what can i say, i've had some proud moments on the court/rink
8) taught 2 people how to swim
9) taught 3 people how to skate
10) i've done some good things for people...



now on to 25 more things that you don't know



1) i say 'thats cool' way too much
2) i have been mistaken for a boy, numerous times
3)my favorite hat is a mooron riverdal hospital base ball cap
4)i have never had an IV
5)i like to see who would be who in books and movies, out of my friends
6) i've been attacked by yellow jakets, and chased around while being stung by them
7) i write in here for myself and only myself
8) i spend to much time watching movies
9) i hate being by myself..too much time to think
10) i post to keep my mind occupied
11) i love to sing
12) i love to take pictures! i usually have a camera with me
13) i love to dance! (i suck though!)
14) i have very aquierd tastes
15) my socks never match, and never have
16) im very attached to jeans from the 6th grade
17) i give a lot of advice
18) i love nail polish
19) i will not stand racsisim
20) i egged my elementry school
21) i have HUGE feet and hands
22) i have 3 other peoples souls
23) i do belive in reincarnation
24) i love standing on the edge of the platform and pull back 2 seconds before the subway comes
25) i used to do some kids chinese homework for him!

well i'm done for now...see ya