so lets see what renee can ramble on about here today. well summer school is easy ass!
" hey bitch, i hear you got a beef with my girl"-julie
umm what else to say. im actually 3rd in my class, so im finally on of the smart kids!! oh yeah, but its not all what its cracked up to be. i always thought that itd be so great to be smart, but i dont see what the big deal is. i mean i dont have a new and improved self worth.i finish my work before most people and then i have all this time with nothing to do. so i get really bored and think up all this crazy shit. yesterday i decided that my class should be a zoo, and i went through my class and gave everyone an animal that they resembled. then i drew corresponding pictures. if i had a scaner i would show you. assuming that there still is a 'you'. im not sure if anyone reads this anymore. oh well.
i've been really busy lately. but ive been having fun. being busy isnt always a bad thing.
still my gutair gently weeps....when i have stuff to say but cant think of the words to put them in, i write the first thing i hear. which would explain why so many of my posts have lyrics.
oh yeah i remember why i was going to post orginally. today i took a nap when i got home. i had a really strange dream. i can only remember parts of it, but it was like everything wasnt clear. like everything had a fog around it. it wasnt the feeling when your head feels foggy. it was like when it gets foggy here early in the morning and you cant see anything around you. it feels like your in a dome. i like it then, because then it really feels like were just puppets in a snow dome. but back to my dream, everything was really misty and unclear. and everything was on a major tilt. i remeber i was trying to pick up some of my hair elestics that i had dropped. it was really hard, and when i thought that i had gotten mine, i was suddenly in my sisters room and i had grasped $260. it was 2 $50's 1 $100, and a ten. i remember that because the 50's and the 100 looked the same but one obviously had 100 written on it.
it wasnt really an interesting dream, mostly because i cant tell you how stuff happened after wards. i know what happened but its hard to describe, mostly because i dont really remember them in chronological order.
but i really hate that feeling of not being in control. its not the drunken/ stoned feeling of being out of control, its the inability to control your body. its the you know what you want to do but your body just wont let you. so heres a key note to anyone: if i ever become paralyzed, kill me. i guess its not the feeling of being out of control, its the helpless feeling... i dunno when i feel how i did in my dream i feel crazy, like its some war between what i want and what im actually saying/doing/unable to do.
wow this has been my longest post in a long time. how about that.
to lift me up on high, i never asked you why.....go fuck yourself, you might as well...
well im off to write about a village of elves.
"I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant."
" hey bitch, i hear you got a beef with my girl"-julie
umm what else to say. im actually 3rd in my class, so im finally on of the smart kids!! oh yeah, but its not all what its cracked up to be. i always thought that itd be so great to be smart, but i dont see what the big deal is. i mean i dont have a new and improved self worth.i finish my work before most people and then i have all this time with nothing to do. so i get really bored and think up all this crazy shit. yesterday i decided that my class should be a zoo, and i went through my class and gave everyone an animal that they resembled. then i drew corresponding pictures. if i had a scaner i would show you. assuming that there still is a 'you'. im not sure if anyone reads this anymore. oh well.
i've been really busy lately. but ive been having fun. being busy isnt always a bad thing.
still my gutair gently weeps....when i have stuff to say but cant think of the words to put them in, i write the first thing i hear. which would explain why so many of my posts have lyrics.
oh yeah i remember why i was going to post orginally. today i took a nap when i got home. i had a really strange dream. i can only remember parts of it, but it was like everything wasnt clear. like everything had a fog around it. it wasnt the feeling when your head feels foggy. it was like when it gets foggy here early in the morning and you cant see anything around you. it feels like your in a dome. i like it then, because then it really feels like were just puppets in a snow dome. but back to my dream, everything was really misty and unclear. and everything was on a major tilt. i remeber i was trying to pick up some of my hair elestics that i had dropped. it was really hard, and when i thought that i had gotten mine, i was suddenly in my sisters room and i had grasped $260. it was 2 $50's 1 $100, and a ten. i remember that because the 50's and the 100 looked the same but one obviously had 100 written on it.
it wasnt really an interesting dream, mostly because i cant tell you how stuff happened after wards. i know what happened but its hard to describe, mostly because i dont really remember them in chronological order.
but i really hate that feeling of not being in control. its not the drunken/ stoned feeling of being out of control, its the inability to control your body. its the you know what you want to do but your body just wont let you. so heres a key note to anyone: if i ever become paralyzed, kill me. i guess its not the feeling of being out of control, its the helpless feeling... i dunno when i feel how i did in my dream i feel crazy, like its some war between what i want and what im actually saying/doing/unable to do.
wow this has been my longest post in a long time. how about that.
to lift me up on high, i never asked you why.....go fuck yourself, you might as well...
well im off to write about a village of elves.
"I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant."
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