hello to one and al. well what can i say... i just got back from the doctors. it was amazing, this man actually cared as to what was wrong with all of me. he checked my reflects (which by the way are quicker than normal) everything. sent me for blood tests ( i find it fasinating to watch them take blood from me. three viles! i dont know what you guys complain about! the blood really justs spurts from you!)and in a couple hours im gonna go get a x-ray of my back. he sending me too a couple of doctors to get theyre opinions about different things. and hes sending me for an MRI and just wow. this dr. has done more for m,e than all the doctors ive seen in the past year and 2 moths. usally all the doctorss i see crush all my dreams and hopes. and i usally leave there crying, and for once in a long time im crying because im happy. im finally gonna find out whats wrong with me, and not just one thing, everything. im being sent to a phycaitrist (?) for my brain, and ill find out whats going on with that, and then maybe i can get that taken care of. and we're having tests for muscle diseases and everything. my life is starting to look up. people actually care. its not the solution to my problems, they don't even know what is wrong yet, but im getting there, surly but slowly... and i had just given up all hope, i cant even to tell you how happy i am. i have a boyfriend who i love dearly, my friends are great, i found a doctor who cares, and maybe someday i'll get better. some day i may be able to play professional sports, some day i'll be able to frolic in the fields. someday....