WARNING ***** I'M GOING TO BITCH FOR A WHILE **** PROBABLY IN BEST INTEREST TO SKIP THIS POST*********

There you have been suficationly warned...

I offically hate this...
now you might be wondering what the hell happened between my last pot about an hour ago and this one... Well not much...talked to Tyler for about 5 minutes. may or may not see him, i dunno
I just so sick of this... who said this was easy? it fucking sucks. love sucks..simple.
I just either want to be with him or not be with him, none of this limbo crap....
why does everything have to be so complicated?!?
I just want to stop thinking about him.
I want to stop crying
I just want to be happy
nothing seems to work
my meds don't work, positive thinking doesn't work, sleeping all the fucking time doesn't work
hanging out with friends doesn't work, talking doesn't work, writing doesn't work, eating all the time doesn't work, new piercings don't work, nothing fucking works....
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I've done everything right, so what is missing?
I just don't get it.
its so fustrating