i finally decided to write i have had so much to think about i jsut couldnt write nething till now...

So its tues now... ive never had a week go by so slow... nor have i cried so much nor have i recieved so many hugs fr so many ppl. its a weird thing. i talked to his parents today. apparently theyve heard a lot about me. its just so hard. ive never really lost any1 before and although i havent known eerik for that long he definately still had an impact on my life. he was so quirky and i cant get his voice out of my head. like rob i havent known him that long but i still have many memories of times together and past conversations. i also had a dream on sunday night. right after he died. i had many but the most vivid one was the one where we were at the funeral and looking at the casket crying. but then for some reason it was open and i could see something moving. eerik popped out of the casket eating a bowl of fruit salad and looked at us and said EYYYY... so like always we said it back and i turned out it was all a big joke.... then i woke up and it took me a minute to have the harsh reality sink in that it really wasnt a joke. i cried..... again.... uyesturday i was afraid to sleep again so i had about 3 hours.... im really tired... getting more irritable. but finally were thinking more about the fun times... having the odd chuckle reminising on eeriks qurks... the way he stood his odd remarks like 'hey im wearinmg clean pants; i never imagined that i would have such a hard time dealing with all of this. today i speak at impact. it was also odd....i also just found out that ron boyes (my best friend fr southwoods dad) is going to die w. in the next few days of cancer. its so hard to deal w/ death. i hope that i will become more stable each day. the situation is in my prayers. i kno that eerik and many of u didnt belve in god or nething of that kind but i mean it was important to his parents and i cant do harm right? neway we wont forget what he meant for all of us
RIP