when i blog i dont think about what im typing. i just let the thoughts from my head flow. its one of my forms of dealing with things. last night when i wrote the blog about not wanting to be around anyone, that was how i felt. i didnt want to be around anyone. this is like a diary. i shouldnt have to think about what i am writing in a diary. most things taht i write in here are just a form of dealing with what happens in my day. if i have a conversation with someone that is upsetting, then i will write about it, most likely not in a direct form. the blog last night was my feelings after having a conversation with someone. i dont nessacerly write down all of what i mean, beacuse the posting doesnt require me to do that....if i sound like im talking out of my ass, then thats great. i could care less, it works for my purposes.