this is me at 1:40 in the morning
arg. I dont even know where to begin, so im not going to.
I realize that i have to be the worst conversationalist ever! I can't talk to you unless we're actually doing something (playing pool, video games) or there's a group of people. or im intoxicated.
otherwise theres too much pressure. And if I dont happen to know you all that well, then I have no idea what to talk about, without making myself sound like an idoit. Which usually happens anyway, but at least I try. And it makes everything even more difficult if the other person doesn't talk either, and uses the excuse that its because your not talking. Mad pressure I tell you.
It makes things difficult, like meeting people. Even with people I know, and who i'm good friends with, I have a hard time coming up with something to talk about. It sucks ass.
I've also come to realize that its really important to have friends who aren't all in the same group. And it's great to have girlfriends. Which is really weird coming from me, seeing as I've always hung out with guys. I guess its just a different type of friendship. But its good and needed.
I also have come to the great realization that if I have to get my damn wisedom teeth removed.
Stupid teeth, being stupid and painful.
And over the holidays, since I had really weird sleeping habits, I missed taking a lot of my meds. And so I have been assured that I do in fact need them, and should really take them on a regular basis.
On yet another note, I am sleeping less and less. And I am on the computer more and more in the middle of the night.
AND IF MY GODDAMN JAW LOCKS ONE MORE FUCKING TIME, I'M GOING TO FREAK!!!
Gah. I don't even know right now. I hate being torn between things. Between descisions.
I cant wait until this semester finally ends. Im so sick of school. Its not even like I go to socialize.
On the upside, on the 23 im going to toronto and am either getting another tattoo or a vertical industral piercing.
Well since no one interesting is one, well actually more like anyone I have anything to say to.
I might as well go and try to sleep for a while.
I realize that i have to be the worst conversationalist ever! I can't talk to you unless we're actually doing something (playing pool, video games) or there's a group of people. or im intoxicated.
otherwise theres too much pressure. And if I dont happen to know you all that well, then I have no idea what to talk about, without making myself sound like an idoit. Which usually happens anyway, but at least I try. And it makes everything even more difficult if the other person doesn't talk either, and uses the excuse that its because your not talking. Mad pressure I tell you.
It makes things difficult, like meeting people. Even with people I know, and who i'm good friends with, I have a hard time coming up with something to talk about. It sucks ass.
I've also come to realize that its really important to have friends who aren't all in the same group. And it's great to have girlfriends. Which is really weird coming from me, seeing as I've always hung out with guys. I guess its just a different type of friendship. But its good and needed.
I also have come to the great realization that if I have to get my damn wisedom teeth removed.
Stupid teeth, being stupid and painful.
And over the holidays, since I had really weird sleeping habits, I missed taking a lot of my meds. And so I have been assured that I do in fact need them, and should really take them on a regular basis.
On yet another note, I am sleeping less and less. And I am on the computer more and more in the middle of the night.
AND IF MY GODDAMN JAW LOCKS ONE MORE FUCKING TIME, I'M GOING TO FREAK!!!
Gah. I don't even know right now. I hate being torn between things. Between descisions.
I cant wait until this semester finally ends. Im so sick of school. Its not even like I go to socialize.
On the upside, on the 23 im going to toronto and am either getting another tattoo or a vertical industral piercing.
Well since no one interesting is one, well actually more like anyone I have anything to say to.
I might as well go and try to sleep for a while.
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