and the truth comes out
ok so the truth is I miss lance so fucking much. I never did stop missing him. And I fucked up. I love that kid so much its scary. And quite frankly I just want to be with him. He made me so fucking delioursly happy. So what the fuck is wrong with me, honest to god. But ive done alot of thinking, and I realized that I took alot of my shit out on him. And im so fucking sorry that i did. He means the world to me.
so after I realized that, cause im a dumbass and didnt see it earlier. So a few minutes ago I e-mailed him, apologing for the crap that I put him through. And I asked him if he wanted to start over. completely new. and slow. and I really hope he says yes, although I doubt that he will. but theres nothing wrong with hoping right?!?
fuckme, I really fucked things up this time.
im such an asshole.
I havent cried so much or so hard in a long time. I dont know what else to say except taht im sorry, and i fucking miss him.
Im not telling anyone, if they happen to read it then great, if not then oh well.
im done putting my problems on the people I care about. I only end up screwing myself in the end.
so after I realized that, cause im a dumbass and didnt see it earlier. So a few minutes ago I e-mailed him, apologing for the crap that I put him through. And I asked him if he wanted to start over. completely new. and slow. and I really hope he says yes, although I doubt that he will. but theres nothing wrong with hoping right?!?
fuckme, I really fucked things up this time.
im such an asshole.
I havent cried so much or so hard in a long time. I dont know what else to say except taht im sorry, and i fucking miss him.
Im not telling anyone, if they happen to read it then great, if not then oh well.
im done putting my problems on the people I care about. I only end up screwing myself in the end.
1 Comments:
Hey snow princess... Hope you are better today.
We have all been there done that. I have learned to work on my anger..
The ever so famous Patience is a virtue... AHHHH grr.
I have also learned to think before I talk. My ex taught me that. I fucked up the ralationship aswell. I'm glad you notice your mistakes. It took up until now to realize mine. Things will get better. If he doesn't take you back. Then fuck it. a new man will come into your life.
They always come back. Ex boyfriends are like fungus they never go away. That is the truth.
You now know that you apologized for all the bad and you know in your heart that you are trying. You are going with out a fight. That is good.
Hang in there. I found out that ignoring a man for a few days helps out. They begin to wonder why you haven't called and all that shit.
Take care hun.
Always,
your friend in Cali
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