i hate when me and keith argue....we never resolve anything....damn being stubborn... i usally just end up feeling like a bigger ass then i already did..not to mention crying like crazy...i never know how things really are with us.i just want us to have a good relationship...not that we don't, but we go through high points followed by low points....which really sucks...and contray to my sisters popular belief we are not always fighting...usally only when we're both stressed out....i dunno....i always take all my fustrations out on him...mean while all my other friends get the humor and doing stupid things to please others person...i have no idea why he stays with me...i just bitch at him...i guess because he knows that no matter what i still love him...and i guess that theres the good times...just gotta pull through the bad...i dunno, im no expert on relationships....i just really want to cuddle up on a couch and watch a movie with him....that would make me feel so much better...then i would know if we are ok or not...i think taht we are...we're far from being on the rocks or anything...i just need that reassurance....im needy that way...always need to be reassured... with everything...mostly that ppl still love me...no words needed, just a good hug...right outs the blue...i'm such a fan of hugs...nothing beats them, well except cuddling...i'm a very phycical person...i like to be close with the ones that i love...i mean i'd rather be squached on a couch with my bestbuds, then we all have our own seprate chair 1 meter away from eachother....just the cloesness...its like you can feel the love just going through one person right to teh next, it runs through our veins...i hold hands with my friends and kiss them on teh cheek. it means nothing, just that i am very comfortable with that person, and i'm showing affection for them....knowing that someone loves you no matter what you do, will heal all wounds...not saying that you wont get upset. but being with people that you love and taht love you will heal....thats one of the reasons that i love my friends, were so open about how we all feel towards eachother...i mean at the beginging of this blog i was all upset,and crying...now im sitting here as calm as can be, smiling...the power of love, its not in words, its in actions....i know that keith loves me but just the little things that he does..making sure that im comfortable....keeping me warm...compaininy...knowing little things about me...like how i like tea...its all about the little things that tell you weather a person is true or not...even works with friends....now that i think about it....i know that me and keith are alright...we'll deal however we see fit...we may fight from time to time, but we're ok in person....yeah, i love him, and i know that he loves me....took me long enough to realize that you dont always have to say anything.....