so i just got back from visting with my uncle eddie..he's doing alot better than i expected...well he wasnt hooked up to machines and stuff...he just looks really weak and stuff....he's on a drug very simeral to morphine....so he's not in pain...im glad...he lives 2 doors down from krista, so i think that i'll vist him more often...im always up there anyways.....i love my uncle eddie....so i've calmed down about the keith thing...i'll do whatever to make him happy...and if this is what makes him happy then so be it....this isnt about me, soo...yeah....not that it doesnt bother me...because believe me it does...but yeah...if this is what he wants then so be it...i have a tendency to cling to people when i'm going through stuff, so watch out....and he needs his space...i'd rather that this not happen, but....im not the one dealing with his problemes...nor is he dealing with mine.....man...what a day...what a year....i hope 2002 gets better.....dont know what else to say....love you all......