well chris, the reason that i dont post here that often anymore is because i have a different blog to write what i feel and such. as for everyone else stina hasnt written in a while, but i was the one who posted the most.

hey hey hey!!!!
im having a really good day today. i went to sick kids today. and the doctor ruled out muscle diasses, fribramyalga, arthrighues, and lupus. so what i have wrong with my back can be fixed!!! im REALLY REALLY happy about this. and my throat doesnt hurt anymore!! and today i got to eat real food!
it was really funny at the doctors office me, everytime one of the dr's came in me and my mum would be laughing our asses off, and as soon as they steped in the room we would shutup. it was hilirous. and then if you know me then you've seen my amazinly strechy skin. i was lying down on the bed, adn i had 3 dr's over me, pulling at my skin. it was so funny! i was laughing so hard.
i was just at the store and i saw fluff. hahah...well im off to go hang out with charly!

hey hey, im back from my 7days away...well i just got back from the doctors office with the joyess news of having strep throat. fun fun fun!!! but its okay because she gave me this stuff taht numbs your throat so i can eat and drink.
while i paticently waited for an hour in the waiting room, his guy actually fell asleep. he was snoring so loudly! oh my, it was funny.
well to the lucky sob's who are in boston right now. i hope you have fun!!!

hey well ive decided to post todat because i wont for a long while after today. Im going on many adventures. It will be nice to get away from this town we call ajax or as others call "gay jax". Yeah i really enjoyed that poem too. Maybe when i get back ill post some more, being the hard core poet fan that i am. Haha. anyway so tomorrow after school im coming home and packing and then heading up to muskoka for a prep thing for working at camp. Should be fun times. Better than doing school work anyway. Next i will be going to boston on the tues after the monday i get from my other thing ( very confusing sentance i know) im quite excited. Im really excited about the arts museum and the aquarium.

Last fri i went to the OCAD and AGO with my art classit was entertaining. Me and brittany had good times there hopefully this gallery will be even better. Well i guess it will be hard to beat Yoko Ono... JOKES man i didnt really realize how crappy her art was until i saw it. The half room was ok though. Well i dont have any deep thoughts to share as of now but maybe when i get back.

later

stina, thats a cool poem.
well i just got back from the bigwig/jersey show at the dugeon. it was alot of fun. met some cool people. it was awesome!
i really needed to go and relive some tension and stress. what more cna i say i had a hell of a time!

Well we have to read poetry for school and i found a poem thats amazing. hopefully you all enjoy it as much as i do

"the seven ages"
by louise glùck

In my first dream the world appeared
the salt, the bitter. the forbidden the sweet
In my second i descended

I was human, I just could see a thing
beast that I am

I had to touch, to contain it

I hid in the groves,
I worked in the fields until the feilds were bare-

time
that will never come again-
the dry wheat bound, caskets
of figs and olives

I even loved a few times in my disgusting human way

and like everyone I called that accomplishment
erotic freedom,
absurd as it seems

The wheat gathered and stored, the last
fruit dried, time

that is hoarded, that it is never used
does it also end?

In first dream the world appeared
the sweet, the forbidden
but there was no garden, only
raw elements

I was human
I had to beg to descend

the salt, the bitter,the demanding, preemptive

And like everyone, I took, I was taken
Idreamed

Iwas betrayed:

Earth was given to me in a dream
In a dream Ipossessed it

im going ti be shgaj

damn you insomnia!
damn you insomnia
damn you insomnia
its 7:10 am
i havent slept yet
and i dont know the aphalabit
damn im tired
how do you like the new background?
i like it
im seeing what all this does
its mothers day!
i saw spiderman lastnight/tonight?
why did we buy 65 timbits?
i bought a movie
its canadian

i think its called the newford girl?

its not bad, i like it
anymoney this doesnt do shit
but yet im still doing it
hahah, im insane!
i cant say the alphabit backwards
boihahaha
i have been down loading a ton of amvs and anime
im such a sappy girl *hangs head in shame*
im also in love with brad pitt
charly's my wife

everyone needs to take this test. its so true taht its scary!

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has trod before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

AHHH!!!!!!! this is a post by a girl who ISNT going to the Pennywise show tonight. thats right people. i've spent all afternoon biking all over ajax. DAMN IT!!! so now i have nothing to do tonight. oh well at least i'll get to see jersey at the dugeon on monday.
well if anyone wants to do something, i'll be here. anyway, what else to say?!? i've got nothing...

ahhh... you thought that was all for tonite... WRONG... i just had a thought from something i saw on TV today... i saw something to do with pepsi then i thought about the huge corporate thing with britney spears promotion of her CD and pepsi. This afternoon my sister was watching egos and icons on much music(ahhh civics video that was awful!!) anyway it was on britney spears... George Stromboulopoulous @ one of the press conferences totally cornered her about the question of her mad self promoting... i wish i had the exact quote but she had nothing to respiond... anyway the parts of the press conference were pretty amusing.., there was this representative from the gay communitity... he kept asking questions like about how her @ J timberlake were broken up that she could hook them up(he was a guy) and stuff like "Are you a bisexual? " "do you have anything to say community" its kinda funny... anyway thanx to chris' post about pepsi that triggered that thought.. well im about done so bye!

hey, i havent posted as offten as i normaly did. oh well things change. anyway, im excited, tommorow is the pennywise show, they're playing with jersey and not by choice. it should be lots of fun! plan on meeting some people, jumping around, and getting that high and mighty sense of freedom!
as for kyle, sure i have lots of things to say, but they usually get me in trouble. auto is a perfect example...beware of the lost children of the corn!
"Float like a butterfly, sting like a bee."

the lone blogger on the plums blog *sigh* im not really sure why renee picked the name either... maybe one day ill progress to my very own blog. Well tomorrow im going to that art trip! it should be fun times... i just found my sister in OAC @ dunbarton is going too... its strange what a coincedence. Anyway i dont have to much to blog about...im looking forward to boston... that should be awesome time... sorry renee i couldnt give you an answer on the pennywise show... i kinda wanna go now.. oh well some other time. G night!
lates

hey hey
im back i dont post very much... oh well im back by popular demand.. hhahahaha what a joke. Anyway yeah this week has sucked big time in respect to death....i just prefer not to thing too much about it. a good cry here and there... anyway yeah people with my church hsa been where its all happened there was lisa... eddie from camp.... Iva a friends friend and the suicide at dunbarton/ At least i wasnt extremely tight with any of them so im not a total wreck but its sad all the same. Well im doing my homework for civics its so dumb! we have to write a recommendation letter and a resume that in it self isnt bad... but its ridiculus cuz we have to do it french. It seems like even more of a waste because im leaving french immersion. I cant take it. *sigh*
anyway so im really tired for some reason im not sure... im drinking a coke maybe ill feel a littel more awake. Probably not because i will be tired just hyper now too.... oh man! i get stupid like that. Man when i talk like this it feels like im an alcoholic or something but for caffeine. Its funny my mom whenever she has beer she like peer pressures me into drinking it. Silly mom..... anyway * Ive seen better days...* thats a song. Know who i havent heard in forever.... Everlast they just dissapeared. The song "what its like" was good,... I liked it anyway. ITs all about how in this blog i have like a billion different discontinued thoughts. Well off to continue typingmy french resume *thumbs up*
later

hey...stina that sucks about lisa...
well last night i went to my softball tryouts.i wasnt playing my best, but i think i have a chance..im just happy that i got a chance to play, and that i can actually do it! even though getting there was a mission by its self...i didnt go out last night because i was to tried, but me and my sister ran into charly when we were getting movies, so he came back to my place, and we watched Orignal Sin, and Blow..i almost fell asleep way to many times. he didnt end up leaving until 3am. it was the usual fun. as for today, i have nothing planed, but i'll end up doing something, i always do.
as for a funny story that happened in auto...
we had this supply teacher, i think his name was mr.ranch. and he's this short little rectangle man, whose an old guy, late 50's or 60's.
i was talking to this guy jason about pleather pants, and mr. ranch says to me: you should wear leather.
me: naw i dont think so
mr. ranch: to tight?
me: to hott.
mr.ranch: no. i like my girls in leather. i have 2 granddaughters, and a daughter.
*then he walked away, and me and KB are cringing*
**then he comes back**
mr. ranch: and the short cut off jackets...

then i walked out of the class room...its all about the ass eh charly!

hey yeah i havent blogged in a few days. I had a weird mishap at the library the other these guys cameup and gave me their friend jeffs info on a peice of the library computer paper... keith and afew others saw it... it was funny guys eh? so yeah how goes it everyone... well today im ok but its a lil somber this girl that goes to my church sometimes died of leukimia today... its sad her name was lisa *sigh* ... i didnt know her all that well though i talked to her a few times here and there but its insane shes like 15.... anyway hope fully ill go to the movies or chill or something tonite. Dont know about slavis party. I might get a ride from krista well see how it goes. I got my mask for art fired today it looks pretty cool i think im going to paint it and fire it again to make it look stoney... who knows. I have lots of discontinued thoughts in this blog. oh well Have a good weekend everyone!!
later!

hey hey!@! im so excited! i just found out that i'm aloud to try out for the select softball team in pickering!!!!! i hope i make it!!! the first try out is on friday.
wish me luck!