6 more minutes until I can print my damn script...I hate how we have to wait until the 5 minutue bell in order to print at lunch. meh
I got my Less Than Jake ticket last night, it should be a fun show.
5 more minutes.....
hmm, a really cute guy just walked past...anyway
oh there he is again,....
If he keeps walking past me, this is going to be a very boring post...
oh damn he left the library.
alright, anyway....
I fiugured out what im doing for my b-day.
Some of us are going down town on the 30th... (oh, hot guy walked back in) im getting my tattoo, then were going shopping an probably seeing a movie at the paramount. It should be fun times.
well the 5 minute bell should go soon, hopefully, comeon!!!!

AHHHHH
I havent been able to fall asleep easily lately...GAH!!!!!
in other news, I celebrated 4:20 in the usual fashion, good times had.
I hate waiting for people to awnser me. especially when it's a semi-important question, written by e-mail. honestly, it's driving me insane!! It's been a freaking week already......execpt I know that they dont check thier e-mail very often. so its my fault really, but still.. GAH!!!

Finally an appointment that I'm looking forward too!!!
April 30th at 5:30, at New Tribe, I have an appointment with Fabrizio!!! And this is to get my tattoo done. Im getting the fairy I wanted orginally, but simplified a bit, opn the small of my back, 5 inches high, and 7 inches long. And it's only going to cost me about $200........ oh yea, I'm happy!!!

I feel like blogging.
Hmmm.
so me and lance went and saw Jersey Girl. Directed by Kevin Smith, other wise I probably wouldnt have gone to see it. Well it was definalty no jay and slient bob, type films. It was good. It had a few editing mistakes at the begining. Like when Jennifer Lopez is in labour, one moment shes covered in sweat beads, and the next she's completely dry. There were some other ones too. It was good though, it had a good plot. It was very sad, adn made me cry 5 times at seperate intervals of the movie. but there were some really funny parts where you're laughing for a good 5 minutes. And it had the obvious Kevin Smith screenwritting, oh the monogules, and quick-witted characters. I like that syle though, it's very distinct. Lance didn't like it cause there were sad parts. I thought it was pretty damn good. I also really like the fact that Kevin Smith went for a different style of movie, but kept his own style, and signature marks.
After that we went to chapters, and I got a book, Kill joy, and some $10 coffee. Damn starbucks. it's so tempting!!
Then we continued our journey home, made a pit stop at the tube to rest, continued our journey after much begging, pleading, whinning, annoying, and tapping of lance to go. The we just kinda wandered aimlessly around the war time houses. Then over to Pizza Pizza, and finally home. And here I am.
I think I'm going to go start my book, even though I have 2 books to read for french class for next week, and I'm in th emiddle of about 2 other books, I think I'll start a new one. Not to mention tons that I've bought and never read.
meh, I'll get around to them someday.

good old blogging at school. supposed to be doing french work, but meh, screw it! hmm, can't wait until tonight at 12:01am...i get paid, and im going to get food!! damn I'm hungry, wait a minute that makes it sound like I don't get fed. hmm. well I do, but I want fast food!!!!
hmm, I have to work tonight.....

Damn prom. need I really say more?!? I'm glad that I don't really care much about it. my dress cost me $30. so that's done. now all I have to do is figure out who the hell I'm going to go with, or if I should even bother. I don't want to go alone, cause I know everyone else will be in a couple, so I want someone to talk to. I'll probably ask Lance to come, he'll probably say no. Maybe I'll see if Jeff wants to go, cause he's going anyway. I dunno... oh well.
Less than 2 weeks until my b-day.

12:30 am. . . crap I don't know what to write. I could make it summerizing my weekend, but I don't feel like it. I had a pretty
good night, went to Allan's house, chilled. Got home went on a walk in the rain with Lance. it was fun up until we started talking, and now im depressed. Oh great. now tyler's talking to me. so much for possibly feeling better.I hate talking to people when I really don't feel like it. yeah, ok, I could just not, but, I dunno, I just feel compelled too. Well that was short, good, now maybe things will look up. this must be incredibly annoying to read, theres just random capilizations, and puctuation, not to mention horrible spelling. So many people get the link to this site off of Christina K's msn profile. She used to write here, like years ago. And for some reason the link is still there, I'm sure who ever is looking for her page is mighty disapointed when they get here. I kinda want her to take it off, but i dont really care.
I have some homework that I really need to do, and yet, it's oh so surprisingly not getting done. It really should, seeing that yeah, I'm coming back next year for 1 credit, but I dont want to have to pass completely. Theres no way in hell that I'm getting into university. Which kinda sucks, cause I think I'd like it, but I just cant do homework. whatever Im a slacker. This is a horrible post. God, I wish I could just surpass my b-day altogether. Some of us were suppose to go to Toronto, but I don't think that that will happen. Which sucks cause I wanna spend time with my friends.
Well writing isnt helping me here any, so Im not going to force you to read any futher.

So it's FRIDAY, and im in love....okok, i lied, I'm not, Not even near it. But it's a good song! And you should all go listen to it now.
I'm feeling better!! finally!! well Ive been good up till now, and im just hoping that it continues. I actually was hungry today, with an appatite!! oh yeah! And I haven't cried yet, or been really depressed! But I think that I can partical attribute the lack of depression to the fact that I'm chilling with someone tommorow after I get off work. Oh yea!
I also attempted to fix my horrible dye job. See when I ran outta purple, I left a huge patch in the back bleached. So today, I dyed it orange. As it's the only colour in the house. So it doesnt look too bad, but definalty not one of my personal bests.
Well, I'm going to go and try to clean my room up a bit while I wait for Jen and Kat to come back, so we can go skateboarding. (I don't wanna do it by myself!! It's kinda pointless, cause I dont know what im doing! At least this way they can help, and laugh at me, near me, or with me)
I have a puppy upstairs!!

Alright, back from seeing my doc, and thank god there is hope that I will feel better. Although, I newfoundly feel like a horrible druggie. So because I'm having a hard time coming off my antidepressant (effexor rx) he is now giving me lorazepam, which is supposed to help relieve me of anxity and tension, and help my nausea, and basicly help me with the side effects of coming of Effexor. BUT...heres the thing, its a quick fix, I dissove it under my tougne, and it should start working within minutes. I'm not crazy about this dissolving it under my tongue, sounds a little to much like acid. Oh, and since I'm not suppose to take antidepressants with this drug, he's starting me on Celexa in hopes that it will help with the side affects. So much for not mixing drugs. But he seems a little worried, which in turn worries me. GAH!! I feel like such a horrible drug addict.

My jaw hurts from clenching it so much.

Another day spent at home!
I'm still feeling pretty damn sickly, but I managed to prevent my mum from taking me to the hospital, which is good. And I go see my lovely doc, who decided to take me off this perticular medication in 2 weeks, which is not enough time for me to come off nicely!!!!!Bastard!
so I bleached my hair yesterday, and I went to dye it purple today, and wouldn't you know, I didn't have enough dye. So my hair looks really crappy, oh joy now it matches how I feel!!!!!!! And I was hoping to go pick up some more down on Queen, when we go to pick my sister up from work, but she has a date right after, so I'm stuck with crapy hair until I can go downtown.Im sure my work will not be impressed.
Speaking of dates. (haha, no i don't have one. I wish!) my sister is constently talking about how many dates shes gone on, and how 3 more guys this week have asked her out....blah blah blah...for crying out loud either a) spread the wealth (well not that she really can, but still, I wouldn't mind going on a date) or b) stop talking about it all the god damn time!
I'm not bitter cause I'm lonely, what the fuck are you talking about?!? haha

I really just want to go see this damn doctor tell him that I'm having brutal side effects, so maybe he can wave a magic wand and make me feel better instantly. Cause I really can't miss much more school, but I can't go like this. 1 more hour to go. although I highly doubt that he will do anything for me, other than tell me that 'oh it will go away' yea, it's been 2 weeks and has only gotten worse, asshole! Can you tell whats been a major factor in my life the past week?!?
GAH!!!!
But if my doctor cant make me feel better instantly, who wants to hit me over the head repeatedly so, by the time I come to the side effects will hopefully have worn off. I'd rather a spilting headache than this.
alright, enough of my complaining.

Ah, another day spent at home when I should be at school. Since the end of march break, I've stayed at home more days than I have gone to school. Gotta love that.
But what I hate is Withdrawal!! my god it sucks ass!!! I've been coming off of one of my meds for the past 2 weeks and now I'm completely off of it, and my god it sucks. Im getting so many headaches, shaking all the time, cold and hot flashes, my mind has gone all sketchy on me. Like I can't focus my eyes sometimes, and the view just suddenly shifts. Plus it kinda feels like the day after a long night of drinking. Not to mention the radomn bursts of sobbing for no reason. I wish this would hurry up and get the hell outta my system...

anyway, on to other things. . . I wish 1 out of the 2 people I want to talk to right now would come on line. But neither one of them comes on a lot. Well one more than the other, but even he isnt on. I hate sitting around waiting for someone to come on line.

I've been having the weirdest dreams lately, well not really dreams, nightmares are more like it. They seem to come in like a series. Some how they all connect and play off eachother, and its not cool at all. Plus they are so realistic that I don't always know if I dreamt it or if it happened. Which confuses the fuck outta me.

Last night me and Lance went and saw Walking Tall. It was a pretty decent movie, I liked Johnny knoxvilles character, he was funny. "You stabbed me with a potato peeler!?!"

Well, I'm off to go clean my room, kinda. . . sorta. . .