hey all!
renee be happy its not a one person blog anymore...i havent been completely out of it in the way of blogs... i posted on the extrapotential guestbook... haha i just realized i write posted. They were long enough to be considered posts. I figured if i expressed my opinions here that it wouldnt be as direct. But yeah this whole religion thing has gone insane. Regrettably i dont really feel much better when i respond but like i said in the guestbook to have a quality discussion both sides needed to be explored. If i hadnt put in my 2 cents or a whole dime as the case may be, it may have been quite lopsided.

Onto other things... well saturday was pretty fun i look back on it and realized i did do a lot. I had work for 5 hours then i went shopping in the shwa for a while purchased some nice things *sigh* its all about being materialistic... actually i would say i am to the extreme but too an extent yes. AHhh ever since the invention of guestbooks i feel like i need to always completely explain myself. Thats pretty sad i really shouldnt care what people think of me. Anyway moving on to fun times saturday: well after shopping i met @ hardwood billiards to find that we had to be 19 to go in after 8. Its funny that day my sister actually offered to loan me her ID to go to a bar or whatever cuz i could pass as her... why didnt i take her up on that offer? any way so we went bowling good fun. Charly was first (finally met the guy) and danielle came in 2nd ahead of me. man danielle always one step ahead arent ya? and then we went to renees to watch a movie. I enjoyed it all what a fun filled day.

Wow i like to talk about myself!! that whole paragraph was about me!! any way im not really sure what else to blog about??? controversial issues are interesting but they can result in conflit....i dont really wanna step on more toes for the time being... its all about keeping the peace... also i dont wanna only talk about myself... people write in the guestbook...what direction should the peanutbutter and honey sandwich club should take? well i am going to close
goodnight everybody!!
peace

allo again. i just got back from seeing Death to smoochy...it was a great movie. edward norton never lets me down. not that i've seen all his movies, but the ones i have seen have been worth every penny...danny devito did a pretty good job directing...all and all go see it.!! even if you have to mug the poor lady on the street. do it!!!!!
i lost my flimo mushroom on my necklace...damn i've had that thing since grade 5..
i completly forgot about all teh pinching of the toochys yesterday... nopt to mention the slapping...haha, we're so obsesied with asses..not really, but one would think........well thats all i've got for now....
go see death to smoochy!!!!!!!

hello again.. i refuse to let this blog die....how that could happen with me posting every day i'm not sure. but anyway......
yesterday i went to the mall with alley. it was her day to be hit on, and was 2. hahha the last one was a little frightening....
then last night me, alley, sonja, stina, danielle, charly. all went to billards in hope of playing pool. but of course they had top have a sign saying that you had to be 19+ after 8. which sucked ass because we werent all there before 8.. so we went and played pool. which was fun...good old 4th place...then off to the coffee shop...where we were for a while...danielle and alley, sorry that we werent there when you got back! so me, charly , and stina went back to my house to watch the lost boys, which is a pretty good movie...then charly got to see what a female sleep over with me and stina's like...the dissions of who could beat who up, and the wresling match of me and stine over the bed...then they left at around 1:30 am....so we had fun....just about everytime im with cahrly we always end up watch ing a movie. and im not complaining at all......well to day is easter, so happy easter to all who care.......
"Happiness is good health and a bad memory."
~blessings and moonlight~

hey hey...guess who cleaned her room today?!? oh yeah that would be me...anyway....today i'm supposed to go to the mall. then i think that we're going to play pool...but whoknows..anyway...yesterday after i gathered charly we walked up to paradise park in hopes of playing manhunt...but no one was there so we went to alleys house....then we walked back to charly's house and didnt get incredibly wet...thenw ewent back to my house to watch a movie which was so sad...but so full of sexual content...jen wants to dye her hair pink...because then she would look just like me...GAH, its like having a clone...i turn around and see myself..except its her...wearing my clothes, jewerly, make-up, and hair...its creepy...it really is...im happy that i cleaned my room....well thats all for today....
"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
~blessings and moonlight~

and im back........i'm afraid of being shot when i lock up my house, so i run upstairs...when i was younger i was afraid that someone would stab/ inject me with something when i was dancing with them..i'm not afraid of the dark, just what i can't see. i was attacked by a dog when i was little. i have a headache..my foot feels funny. i hate the refrigerator.i hate th dishwasher. i hate words. im a hypocraite. im afraid of others deaths, but not my own. i would rather be shot in the head than be paralized.i dont mind hospitals. i'm sitting in the dark. i hate artifical light. i dont like milk. i say malk. i walked home tonight from DO'C. i love the nigt sky, even when its clouded. i love the night. its freedom. no one can see you. i'm feeling very detached. im not stoned or drunk. ihave a neurosurgon looking at my MRI. i dont know why. i'm pretty sure that its nothing serious..i dont need a brace, unless i grow somemore..i wish someone else knew how to release necks..i went rock climbing today. i'm very proud of alley. i'm not afraid of bugs. i wish i could fly. i wish i could jump off the CN tower.i love standingon the very edge of the subway platform and wait until the very last moment to pull away before the train hits me. i love cars going past me. i love walking over bridges. i hate goingon buses for long peroids of time.i've never been on a airplane. i've eaten rabit treats. me hands don't look like part of my body. i'm hungry, but i dont want to eat. i'm on msn, but im not talking to anyone. my cat greets me at the door. mathewsons cats were wearing layas. i have tiny earrings. i discovered a new bruise. i love going to concerts, and getting pushed around. i hate the pinging sound. i like shopping carts as a form of transportation. i got to mathewson's house bymyslef, with no directions. i have so much to say, but no words to say them with. i dislike the freezer. i miss all my friendships which i have lost over the course of my life. i'm chewing cinnamin gum. theres a highlighter in front of me. its yellow. i hate civics class. i hate explaining where i was to people. i hate having people worry about me. i like to read short posts, yet i write really long ones, that are diffcult to read....well with that i leave you...until i find the words inwhich to say fuck you. oh wait i found them.......

hello one and all...another blurb by renee........
i crave simplicty, but its not simple at all.its so complicated...maybe its because i make it complicated...i wish that i lived on an island. where it was just me...before i made friends, before my life became complicated with this things in which we call emotions...a place without words...like i love you, anyone can say it. i've decided i'm not going to say that i love you anymore. because someone says it doesn't mean taht its true. what is love anyway? this is what the dictonary says :"A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.

. "

well i dont like that...i love you is just 3 words, anyone can utter.i think that its in the way that you show it...i wish that there was no speaking...you had to show everyone what you felt...i strongy dislike the way i live...live by myslef, where i could be simple...no need for clothes, i could dance, sing. i would no one to compare myself too. there would be no self doubt, none of the " oh i suck" stuff. no feeling unwanted, or burdensome...nothing to complicate anything...no people, no anything. none of this stuff that is supposed to make our lives so much easier...i want to live like that...no worring about anything..no feelings of stupidness, or loss, hate, fear, injustice, resentment, longing. i could be really happy like that, no words to complicate life, no worring about what you look like. what people think. people worring about you, worring about others...but i could not do that now, because i have experienced people. my mind has been warped into taht mind frame...
well all that was alot better walking home tonight...i had so much to say, but now i have nothing....

hey all!! just so eveyrone knows the first post by alley ysturday was me.. i forgot to mention that. well anyway..so what to post about on the blog today? well look at the topics at hand... i could talk about the long weekend, whats going on on the other blogs, talk about my self, or take an issue from something that ive heard recently. I choose to do all of them well maybe not ALL but well see how it goes. Firstly renee your disgusting! i actually went to read the happy horoscopes...sadly i think you may have too much time on your hands.

Normally i type "you" as 'u' but as many people seemed to be annoyed by this i will make an effort to stop. Although actually using appropriate capitals is a stretch for the time being. So long weekend coming up... should be nice i dont have many plans tho well hopefully ill do something worthwhile.

Hmmm discussing the flipside to most of the christian debates on the extrapotential blog, i feel i should insert my thoughts somewhat on the subject. *sigh* always coming up with a defence. Alex, i do respect your opinions and a lot of what you say is profound and intelligent, but responding to the comment that christianity seems to have many holes, your arguments on the subject also has many holes. As for christianity having references to bigotry i would like to ask you where you got that from? I guess it didnt help that many people from the KKK claimed to be "christians". That whites have supreme power and all that, but they pulled facts out of their heads. Saying that whites are the only people created in gods image is false. It was totally made up. I also would like to note that many of your arguments against christianity are usually taken from what people say not by what the bible says. Its Important to keep the two seperate. Also about the historical facts issue against christianity... i dont know how anyone can say that there is no historical proof. There are historical records and records of witnesses who saw Jesus crucified. Even if you don't believe that he is the Son of God you can't deny that he did exist. The dating system is represented by it(BC= Before Christ AD=Anno Domini). I have more arguments but i will post them if people show an interest. I dont expect by writing this that im going to convert anyone into being a christian but i just hope to clarify any misconceptions that people may have. If any one wants to continue with this discussion, they can always respond in the guestbook, email me or add me on their msn my email is christina_karney@hotmail.com please dont use the address to send crap.

Another topic with much controversy is about that guy who wanted to bring his boyfriend to a catholic school. I would like to say that i DONT agree with the newspapers because it seems that the guy who is making such a big deal out of it all is using this to get press.. yes im aware that many people wont agree with this but :P its MY blog.. .well other people on this blog might not agree with it either but anyway. If he really wanted to go to prom with this guy he could have just gone by saying he was a friend or something. For the Catholic School to actually say that this was not permitted he would have to had told them that he was going to bring his boyfriend. No other couples do that i dont see why this was necessary. The fact is the schools already made up their minds about it so i dont see why the press has to go on about it. I actually respect the fact that they are not compromising their morals just because it would be easier. Also i feel the need to point out that im not actually homophobic i dont hate anybody because of their sexual preference but it seems to me that this guy is grandstanding.
I guess that my "ranting" for the day. I guess that is all
Toodles Zoodles Pasta

and here i am again....well just to say that i updated the "happy horoscopes" so check it out....its funny when my blogs pop up, because for this one, it just says "peanutbutter and Ho" my small, easily amused brain finds it funny.......and now im off to listen to cinderella...what would i do with out this movie? if it ever recks i dunno what im going to do.......*walks off wondering, looking rather scared*

ya i had fun times on my half day today. me and people went out for lunch and our waitress was cool she like made jokes and stuff but then it was kinda sad cause she had to leave early cause her son was hit in the eye with a medicine ball at school. now that would hurt those things weigh like 10 pounds. he's gonna have a shiner tomorrow that is for sure. but ya after that stina and renee and alley taught me how to take the bus cause i didn't know how i am spoiled and get rides everywhere thanks mommy! then we went to alley's house where we waited for nick john and adam who were at john's house and were supposed to come and get us but them being them they shafted us good and never came to get us i mean how jerky is that?! i mean really but anyway we were on alley's msn and stina started flirting with alley's friend and he started flirting back and it was funny and he sent us his pic and he is not bad looking he said he got in a car accident yesterday or something and i can't even count how many times he mentioned it alot. but ya then i had to leave and go to the dance but ya i can't wait till friday when we have all day and not just a half day! ya go good friday! well tah tah for now!

that last post was me...thats right the stupendous...2 wrongs don't make a right, but 3 lefts do....and sadly its true....onone cares cause im alone in world....thats right renee has gone off on to one of her writting whatever comes to her mind trips again...you know you love it...im going to be so pissed if anyone accuses us of wanting to be a sandwich...and just to clear everything up before we start anything, i can tell you right now, i could care less about who invented the sandwich, the history of teh sandwich. and people being unable to BE a sandwich....alriight now that i look like an ass....anyway, auto is pretty fun, we get people to stand on the drill so taht it could go through the pipe...its a funny class, with at least 1 fire a day....its always something in that class.
the kolwala is watching me..i dont like it when things/people watch me...its like theyre picking you apart peice by peice...they're zooming in on your imperfections..(maybe its just my incercerty, but hey) its like they're memorizing you...its almost as bad as the elavator stare...(for those who have no idea what i'm talking about, its when someone starts at you're head, then while moving theirs preceed to slowly check the rest of you out, then back up) i hate it when people do that to you when your talking to them, and they make it oh so obvisous...makes you want to go bathe....gah! and the smirk (you know who im talking about)
we had a snow ball fight outside today, and my fingers froze, and killed....they stopped hurting though....in which im thankful....
after a year of insomnia, i am finially getting sleep...its great! im sleeping at night, when im supposed to be. i wake up, and for the most part feel rested...its great...its helping my mood swings, keeping me awake in class, its such a great feeling...its really helping with the depression...never take sleep for advantaage.........
tonight i watched dawsons creek , in which dawson finialy gets laid...my mum wanted to watch taht just for that....and then watched gilmore girls....oh and i watched my mum scald herself, with a cup of tea....glad plastic bags are interesting, the old man makes me laugh, i dunno why, but he does....i played m,y volia today when i got home...it felt nice i havent played in a while....i need to find soem sheet music for it...i want to learn how to fiddle...i think taht it'd be cool....i like liquid fabric softaner better than the sheets....it makes it sopfter and smells better....i also always sit on my feet when possible...my younger sister pretends to hate it when people compare us, and when people say taht she's just like me....but she gets that happy face, its kinda cute taht she wants to be like me...but she's always done taht...if only she knew....oh well....i have 2 newfews and a neice...theyre really cute!!! my dads in new brunswick....after we graduate i want to go on a road trip to new orleans for mardi grais...i would love to go on a road trip...i would love to get out of the GTA!!!i want to get away from teh citys...i want to go to the country, with my camera of course....i want to climb trees. i want to take pictures of my beutiful friends..but i dont like posed pictures, i like to take pictures when they dont know im taking them, i try to get them as i see them...i want to caputer something, i cant explain it....i want a good camera!!! i have such a crappy camera. i also have a ton of rolls of flim to get devolped...i also need to get my pictures back from krista, and get teh negitives re-devolped from the pictures i gave keith...i want to see death to smoochy....i love edward norton....he's great! what else can i ramble on about?!?! well i dont like moby, and never have........
18 is a universal word, because its a number....we're all made of stars.........well im off, i think i shall go look at names, or something equally pointless.........

anmd now im at alleys house, well actually i've been here the whole time, so yeah?!? we're listening to madonna, oh yeah good old late 80's music!!! well we're supposed to go to nicks hgouse but SOMEONES not home!!bastard!!! well what else can i say?@?@ i skipped 3 with scott, fun times in a staircase...oh yeah, i'm cool, skipping iin a staircase!!! and the shirt that alley is wearing is a HOOTERS shirt!!! hee hee ist teh sercet behind their suscess..its all the shirt...i hate this damn keyboard...its almost as bad as cyncora...danielles being a wuss, she wont call adam, incase ryan eats her.now that would be a lovely picture.....well now we're off to stalk john...

check it out! im @ alleys and im writing a blog. safe half day...today was funny many ppl had informed me and renee that we had been on speakers corner. i SILL havent seen it... and its been on like 8 times!! yeah the devils advocates made fun of us lol. how foolish we are. and when i saw 'we' i really mean all the readers. jokes. so yeah lunch out today @ sunset grill... i had to show danielle how to ride the bus. fun times my pants got really wet so i had to take them up *nudge nudge... taking off pants...putting them in dryer oooooooo. neway ibelivee were going to nicks soon. oh dear!! danielle alley and renee have broken out into scary dance and alleys wearing a hoo***** t-shirt. oh my!!! welll todays been allright no cromplaints. but yeah my mind went blank on whatr i was saying so no i must say toodles zoodles pasta
peace
oh yeah who wrote in our guestbook about seeing the speakers corner... haha summer days...

haha this is a funny quiz renee where do u find these?

!, christina, want you to think that I am bright, fire, and hot...

But in reality you all see me as strong, fast, and beautiful.

And while we're at it I think sex is really flowing, cool, and refreshing.

Dr. LoKi thinks I need professional help!!!!



[ Take the Psych test...I DARE YOU!!! ]

congratulations stina!!!!!!!! yeah a lot of people are sick lately, myself included....i want to see a beautiful mind, but havent gotten around to it yet...and my internet is being stupid...i have some things to say, but i dont want to...its a werid feeling...i guess because i realize that people actually read this...oh well..it happens right?!?....why do i post when i have nothing to say?!? i guess i like the power...i have found a way to keep my cat out of the compter room while im in here...and it works!!!! oh im good!!!! im hungry, but choose to do nothing about it...its simple enough to walk up stairs and get some fruit. but i choose to be hungry and write about it..maybe im only hungry out of lack of better things to do...i'm not sure...and if i really am hungry, then do i really want to eat, and chance making my stomac hurt? the choices the choices....i wonder whats the limit to the sky? i wonder why im named Renee. i wonder why they teach us pointless things at school, just to teach us how to learn...i wonder if i can go swimming tonight...i wonder where my uncle is right now. i wonder how my cousin is doing. i wonder if my neice has said her first word yet. i wonder why in california you cant eat oranges in the bath tub...i wonder how they would catch anyone doing that....i wonder how i remember that when you laugh its actually the nerves behind your right eye. but i cant remember what i did yesterday...i wonder who picked out this wallpaper? its really ugly...i wonder what i was in my past life...i wonder how many people believe in reincarnation....i wonder why humans can make computers and nuclear war heads, but can't keep the peace....i wonder why i like certin numbers more than others....i wonder why i wonder so much...i wonder if some people still remember me...i wonder if they still care...i wonder if i died, would they come to my funeral...i wonder how many people actually truly care....i wonder about alot of morbid things....i wonder alot about death...i wonder why im so inthralled with it....i wonder why i am who i am....i wonder who invented laws...i wonder how you would catch people doing them....i wonder why i blog so much, well i can awnser that....i wonder why this started out as a happy post, and is now what??? i wonder a lot of things.

hey renee no congrats on my blogging? jeeze... no really its ok. so watched the acadamy awards pretty boring... hally berry turned into a blubbering fool... a beautiful mind won all the biggies... it was pretty good...it was crazy tho cuz john nash was a schitzophrenic(sp?) and my uncle is a schiztophrenic too....it was like i was seeing my uncle it was weird... in a way it was cool cuz i could maybe understand a bit better what its actually like for him. i also found it interesting how many ppl who are near geniuses get this condition... my uncle was a really smart math and science guy who built stuff all the time..same is tru for john nash... i found this kinda interestesting... well wondering about the time of this post? yes i am sick again.... darn physical pain. i would have toughen it out @ skool if i had nething to help it but i dont. neway i dont really have much else to say so i bid u all farwell

oh and im

I am Chocolate Flavoured. I am sweet and a little bit naughty. I am one of the few clinically proven aphrodisiacs. Sometimes I can seem a little hard, but show warmth and I soon melt. What Flavour Are You?

Mmm, I am Lemon Flavoured. I am bitter and twisted. Expect from me acerbic humour and sharp commentary. While I may seem nasty at first, I'm actually quite good company if I like you, so long as you don't mind a bit of cutting to the chase. What Flavour Are You?

well this is the first time ive posted in a long time...i didnt wanna post anymore because i was afraid,,,everything i said was critised, shot down and made me feel so awful that i just couldn't deal.but in reading the blog this morning i see that stina and dani has come to my rescue...thanks guys. and so i just wanted to say i missed blogging and you guys as i didnt see any of you this weekend but now im back...(to all of the vampire chronicles blog) : thanx for sticking up for me guys...it means alot to me...

oh yeh and dani...wow!!! great bloggong!! keep it up!!! :)

wow, alot of posting while i was gone..yea!!!! i agree with danielle 100%.....well as charly guessed i will post about what happened last night. so me and charly went to see E.T, which is a movie that is better seen in theaters than on vhs....then we stood in the cold, and then about 30 seconds that we decided to wait inside his parents came to pick us up..always my luck......then we went back to his house and watched some AMV's on the compt, and had a jolly time...well now i must do my history project! fun fun fun, i know you all wish you were me!!!

it is amazing i have blogged three times in one night yes who has n life i thought it was me to. but anway i have one more point to clear up i am sorry but i have to bring up the whole vampire thing. i mean really who cares we are just having some fun times get over it just cause we have imagination and belive in stuff like that dosen't make us inferior to anyone. and with the vegeatrien vampire thing i mean who cares it is just a joke between us and nobody seems to get it. don't talk about something u don't understand that is my moto. and it isn't like we actually wanna suck peoples blood i clearly stated i wanted to be a vampire that feeds off gummi bears so give me a break cause i don't wanna hear it anymore whine whine whine don't read it if ya don't wanna you have the choice so if you only read the blog so you can dis it why waste your time i mean i'm sure you have something better to do with it. have a pleasurable evening or night whatever. good day

hey im posting again cuz i just got myself caught up on all my blogs....its so funny how we all must be right. im making my little comtribution of what ive read... ive noticed among other subjects in circulation, feminism and women who degrate themselves, is a common one. the whole subject on Marilyn Monroe etc. just because sex sells doesnt make it any less degrating... that kinda popped out at me because today at the library i was putting away an article involving playboy and stuff....the article was saying that most men after looking at those pictures did have a higher standard and an idialised picture of what a woman should look like. Despite the fact that we know that theyre airbrushed and are not the average female. but anyway yes woman will still wear what they want and will flaunt themselves blah blah blah but i still think it makes them look cheap. i said "i think" therefor so theirs no confusion that it is just my opinion. Sex sells... it sucks i do have to live with it but i dont see why people are defending it... mostly guys... but neway thats another speil for the day
i really should think more before i post so ppl wont get mad but meh(meh the ultimate expression of laziness)
peace

yeah i agree with both your posts danielle! YOU ROCK in the words of mr bodley. any way that was fun times yeasturday. unfortunately i aint feeling so good now!! ARGH. but i discovered how to make my job less miserable. i listen to my walkman behind the book shelves muahaha no ones the wiser. I need to make more tapes tho. forlike 9 hours ive listened to the same one cuz its the only one i had. SHOOT it was a good tape and i KILLED it. so yeah guys what up with the bashing of out site. particularily renee and alley? not u charly or katie. by the way charly i dont think weve met how does that happen? ive been told ur a cool guy...neway i realize that we DO have a guestbook and thats partly of what its for. but u critisize because some members use the blog as a diary? isnt a blog for posting what ever you want. if u find that boring unethical stupid or under youselves... save us all some trouble and dont read it. simple solution to a simple problem. and about being hypocrytical we are ALL hypocrites and one point or another and many ppl are being them cuz they complain about how we complain in our blog to much. sorry if were not up to your standards. i could appologize for offending ppl but i dont feel the need. im tired of being caught in the middle of the group with in groups. stop tearing each other down.
thanx
hope u all had a pleasant day:)

i just finished reading our dreambook and i must say i am a little offended about what i am reading! people being so rude and offensive. guess what if you don't like our blog then don't read you have the choice and by what some of you are saying about our blog you seem to be making the wrong one by reading it. i don't mean to be offensive but give me a break. i mean sure some of you are making so good points but some are just comin way out of left feild. renee is simply stating an opinion about what she thinks it might not be the same as yours but sorry deal with it and cry me a river. and i think you guys are missenturpreting renee's use of the word feminazi i am not sure what you think it means but she explained it quite nicely i think it just means the really extreme feminist that just get annoying sorry if you found it offensive i'm sure she didn't mean to do it or anything. but now i am done with my rambling have a good time and i will write again!

ya last night at nick's was great fun. we had pile ons and chicken quasadials(spelt wrong sorry) chicken fingers and maple sugar(supposed to be maple fudge but it cooked for to long oops) ya it was fun with me and stina and renee and nick and marcus and adam for a bit. adam was playing us his guitar he is quite good. he has very interseting facial expressions i must say very entertaining! well at one point christina took over nick's msn and was talking to this girl that likes him or something and nick now has a third nipple a glass eye and a missing kidney! good times good times. marcus gave us all nicknames renee is now albert the lumberjack/motorcycle guy, stina is christina brooks(garth brooks' little sister) and i am now silent bob's little sister silent danielle. we were watching some very interesting shows like people eating frogs out of tubes and we were having fun times dancing in the kitchen. that is all for now dinner time good day to you all!

hey hey
i just got back from the mall with my mum. i got some funky pants!!
last night was fun. it was nick, stina, danielle, marcus, me and for 30 minutes adam......it was hilirous!! we had a couple of pile on's... what can i say, now we all know eachother a little better! *wink wink* nick made us food, and attempted at making maple fudge, which actually turned out being maple sugar. so we were all very hyper, and had hats...i like my yamaik. (use the phonic's yam-a-ka)
well now i'm making plans to go to the movies, so i will post later!
and yes i am nicks possisive lesbien lover.

the damn c.d didnt work, i am very very upset!!!!well i just took this quizy thing, and its strangly accrurate! im frightented!!! well now im off to nicks house......


Your Room


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The Window: Your Attitude
Your choice of the forest reveals a person who is lush, verdant and fertile. You are complex. At times serene and tranquil, you provide an atmosphere of relaxation and retreat which is a very powerful magnet. But you are not perfect. You habitually needle people. In your youth you swayed to the hot, pulsing beat of "Light my Fire" (despite the danger it posed to yourself, friends and family). Frequent anti-fire lectures by Smokey the Bear fell on deaf ears. With greater maturity you can now see the forest for the trees. Success for you now may be better defined as a branch office and an oak desktop. Conversely you may be hiding a secret desire to dress as a girl and sing the Monty Python song, "I'm a lumberjack." Whatever -- you know the ultimate truth "No tree grows to the sky."


Click to Play! The Music: Your Lover
Your love ranges from the passion of Beethoven to the delicate beauty of Pachebal. Your relationship is based on an enduring trust and classical balance that helps you both rise to the highest level of understanding.

The Pictures: Your Relationships
Revealing a disciplined personality with multiple friends and family of importance to its psyche. You are one who strives to display affection without syrupy sentiment manifesting emotion in a cool, detached manner.

The Garbage: Your Problems
Your problems are unique to such a good-looking individual. Beneath that metalica exterior you hide all traces of difficulties. You are the essence of cool when you are empty, but the truth of your travails is sometimes smeared on your smiling face much to your humiliation. Others jealous of your style may call you dome-headed, but you know you swing in full fashion colors.

The Clock: Your Future
Your future is that of a visionary, imagining scenarios for the next millennium. You may find yourself at home in an expansive industrial space,or marking time in a future warped out of a Douglas Coupland novel. Guard against your tendency for depression at your core. It is pronounced and evident to all. While this could cause consternation your off-beat sense of yourself redefines your concave, pillowy body as a life saving buoy fed solely on peanut butter thumbprint cookies. Your hands continually caress your external self causing others to accuse you of an inflated ego, but you know that time will pass and prove you to be right on.

hey one and all....i just finnished making my lars fredericton and the bastards c.d....in record time too!!! download some sloppy meat eaters!!!! anyway... i got a picture of my neice and newfew...here now you can see them too! (if this works, knowing me it wont.)
and of course it wont...,but they are so cute!!!!! anyway, enough of my bragging...i've been an aunt for years now...well thats my dribble for right now...the mother must play euchre..its funny cause the only time she swears is when she's loosing, but its always her partners fault...its hiliarous...i'm always getting kicked off....

and we're back to teh orginal site....well i just got home from stich ripping at set desin....oh yeah i'm cool....i didnt goto school this morning, because i feel like a sicky,(well i ama sicky) but i went in the afternoon.man i hate being sick, i always feel so tired, but because i'm not allowed to nap!!! damn having to get my sleep schelue back on track...but it's kinda working....i was going to go swimming to night, but the pool is teh worst place to go when you're sick, or getting sick..... but on another note.(tries to find one) well i don't seem to have another note...well i will be back...

andrew i didnt say anything about your apperance....

'Stina, you forgot some <>'s in the code you tried to post, i fixed it for you.


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what happened t my blog? its all messed now... shoot!! well ill be able to talk to ppl and inform them of myu joiurneys if they would like to kno. i kinda feel bad for going well i did this and this... cuz i dont wana rub it in ppls faces... hey in my other blog i dont think i mentioned this,,, haha its funny in costa rica the dribing age is 16 and more of a suggestion... the same goes for trafic lights and signs... htose crazy ppl... also did u kno that it has no army? AND was the 3rd place in the world to get electricity despite being a 3rd world country after new york and paris! wow just thought id share a lil about what i leartned there. homestly if its a vacation with my family i cannot get away with out learning anything... theyre big on the educatrional trips/ mejh its all good.... oh yeah i notice there are more posts in the guestbook. i notice that no one refers to me on it :( so sad.... maybe its the minimal posting. or i could say jerkish stuff// well about ppl thinking that our blog is just ppl wanting attention.... i wonder why thats necessarily bad. u cant deny that everyone craves attention. maybe theyre not the means to get it , but instead of complaining about it be aware pof ppl who really need it and pay them some attention. why does everyone complaoin so much. coming back from costa rica it made me realize how good life can be. like honestly seeing all that nature and breathing that air...it just felt so good to be standing there and think how lucky i am. what with us alwas looking at the bad? well thats my lil speil. i may sound like an aidiot hey thats what u get!

hey guys im back finally!! did u miss me? man the only thing about being away is that ur kinda like huh? whos with the what noW? but its all good. i had an amazing time and got a partial tan. but yeah i saw ;lots of costa rica the ppl are so nice although at the bank they guard it with dudes carrying ma chine guns and there is lots of barbed wire its all good tho. the food is so good there i never had a bad meal. actually the coffee was too good now i think im addicted...whoops. but yeah i did the whole rain forest thing saw many animals... went to too actrive volcanoes, went to hotsprings the beach surfed. i dug it. i did this canopy tour thing. it was sooo much fun its like the zip line but @ the top of all the trees. there were some really hot guys doing the instructing too. man i hope my pics turned out. yeah and they complimented my eyes. score! but i think its cuz almost everyone has brown there. yeah many many rolls of film i took i think it was like 11 or something. thats a lot of pictures. anyway i miss u all(still do cuz im not @ skool now) well talk to ya later
i would write more but im way to lazy... thats what u get after being in 3 airplanes one day
oh yeah i discovered that i csan be clausterphobic... not a great thing when ur in planes
good thing im not arachnaphobic cuz in costa rica i saw a huge tatrantula!!

You're Yuna. You're hardworking and honest, and also a little naive. You can easily be lied to, but in the end your friends will look out for you. Kind and loving you'd never hurt a fly. You'd be willing to do anything to help others, even if it means some personal sacrafices for you.

Which Final Fantasy X Character would YOU be? Take thetest.

hey again...i just got back from the bbq...it was fun...my little cousins are fun. they call me porkypine.... my uncle is doing alot worse...not fun to see him like this at all...i just realized taht as soon as erin comes anywhere near me, my stresslevel shoots up....
im really crabby right now...damn lack of sleep...i really should be doing history homework right now, but its hard to find stuff on it. so i'm just going to go early to the school and to the libray, and do it there....i dunno. im not feeling all that snazy right now...damn stomac....well im off to go eat my stress away......

yes andrew i am a huge wannabe. you've head the nail on the head! is there anyother way to explain me?
but anyway, yes girls can wear whatever the hell they want. but when you get the wrong kind of attention, by which i mean harassment. you can 't say swat because you were hanging out of your shirt. but this is my opinion, and my blog.

i just got back danielles house. me and alley slept over there...it was fun...we did alleys makeup and made her look like her nan, whereas i later did mine, and looked like david bowie. but i am no longer a black hair goon...i now have red/pink and green and brown hair...i know it sounds just about as goodlooking as really does! me and alley spent all afternoon dying hair yesterday...
anyway, well i must go bathe so that i can go over to my uncle eddie's house...another big familly get together, before he goes to new brunswick...

well hey hey....so me, danielle, and alley...walked from my house to tim hortons ( we are oh so predicitable) then to mcdonalds, but that was to use the phone... then to DO'C because me and dani ( we decided taht danielle really needsa nickname, so she is now dani) wanted toplay on the swings...i am now questioning why i felt the need to blog, just so that i could write that down?!? i mean i could get into some funny little detils, but sadly this isn't only my diary... so i'd sound even more like a bitch , and quite frankly i would sound so stupid. so this is only my dairy for things that i did, and i sometimes leave out a few detils, just because then i would sound like i'd be bragging, which if you knew me, about the stuff taht i'm not writting about then you'd know that i was a)either uncomfortable, or b) found the whole situation, or c) was completly uncaracteristic of me...

i miss my stina!!!!! *starts to cry*

as of now i am in kind of my mood to explain my whole feminism bit....so listen carefully, because i am not repeting this....
i am not a femnazi (being a female who hates men, and feels like theyre the ones holding back equality) i believe that it is us women who are holding ourselves back...men have done alot to help us...they gave us the right to vote...amongst other things... i think that it is the women who pretend to be dumb (now i understand that some of us are, but that applys for men as well) and who try to be the stereotipical blonde...the ones who think that being stupid is attractive, and that men only like girls who let them treat them like shit.... there is so much wrong with just that... if a guy is going to like it should be for who you are. if he likes you because it makes him feel smarter, then he's an asshole...there's no respect...the other thing i hate is when women dress like hookers, because they think that guys will like them better. please! again if he's going out with you based on your looks, then you're nothing more than a chunk of meat...i hate it when i hear a girl say "oh so and so thinks that red leather pants are hott...maybe he'll like me if i get a pair...im going to go to the mall tonight, and get some." i have heard this...dress for yourself...don't dress for you're friends, dont dress for a guy, dress for yourself... women who use they're body to get things...comeon, get some freaking self respect! alright so you didnt have to pay for a drink...way to go!!! but comeon, thats just saying that "hey if i show a guy my tits then he'll give me free stuff." get some pride, work for it, that beer willnever taste better...and i'm not saying thing because it wouldnt work for me, cause yes even if i did have big tits, i wouldnt degrate myself like that...and you wonder why some people treat you like you're a peice of meat...they treat you like taht because thats the vibes taht you are sending out....if you look at the media, mostly in music videos. i've seen movies where women are so degrated, they are treated like objects..listen to brittany spears lyric's, "i'm a slave to you" what kind of message are we sending out here?... men (im generalising here, please realize that i know that this is not the case for every guy...some are just born assholes) treat you the way that you tell them too. in most cases this is subleminal, so watch yourself....if you sont want to be called a slut, then don't be one. don't dress like a hooker and you will be treated differently. when youa re falling out of your shirt you are calling for attention...and you're not going to get the kind you hope for..a good guy wants a girl who has respect for herself..you gotta respect yourself before you can expect anyone else to...
if women want to be treated differently then don't just say it, do something!! you don't need to join a group, you dont have to hate men...simply treat yourself how you would like to be treated. ( if you want respect, the respect yourself. want to be loved, love yourself) don't take being called names. (eg. bitch, whore, slut, pussy, cocksucker, woman) if a guy says this to you, tell them. "yes i am a women, im glad you have eyes. but i also have a name.its' insert name here. please respect that." you don't have to put up with it, so don't.. sometimes you have to show them that you are just as good as the guys. take the women's hockey team, hockey is no longer just a mans sport...support women...don't dress to impress. (again the whole respect thing). have faith in yourself...treat guys equality, don't act superiour, we're not. and neither are they...don't stereotype guys either.(why would they like it anymore than us?!?) when you find out that you arent being reated equaly, speak up for yourself...don't support songs like i'm a slave for you.....watch what kind of vibes you send out......
i guess the biggest thing here is do it for yourself, if you cant do it for yourself, then do it for your daughters, neices, sisters, friends. women all over the world...have respect for yourself. you dont have to be moody, just stern...and treat men as equals.....

well i hope that this has cleared up so now people understand what im talking about...i probably didnt finish half of my points, and i'll think of some later...but for now i hope taht this is suffenicent....

well my mum says that i have to go to bed now...so i'll be back...we all know it

alrighty so i finaly got back from that damned hospital about an hour ago...i had a doctors appointment at 10, so i was at the shoniker clinic, then out again at 10:30. i crossed the street and was at centenial hospital until 5-5:30...thats right i was there all fecking day...but i had nap in teh bean bag chair! and played nintendo 64....

but back to last night.......oh that was fun, i dare say...i met some girls they were a lot fun....so i hung out with them all night...they thought i cool!!! oh yeah!!! anyway, i got head budded in the pit, a couple of times...which caused my nose to bleed...not a lot, but meh...then i got hit in the face somemore. so my lip is busted up...jumped off the stage when jersey was playing, got dropped crowd surfing...but i did it again...there were these kids in there who i swear couldn't be older than 11 tops....it was crazy...and when i got there, theyre was this good band playing, it was they're last song, and no one was moving...so being me, i thought well what would stina do if she were here? so i started skanking in the very middle of this empty circle...and then 2 other girls joined me...which was cool. but it tokk them long enough to get there....oh well it was fun...i was radomly talking to people...it was great!!!! there are more stories but i will save those only for my friends...mostly alley, because she will find them so very offensive...hahaha...just like my shirt "the itty bitty tity club" hahah...silly alley....but i think i hurt my earing because my ears are still ringing...damn it!!!
downtown is so beutiful at night...all lit up...i love it!!!
well alley should be makling her way over here soon, where we will meet danielle and wonder the town aimlessly...in other words, i tell them taht we're going on a magical adventure. and we walk down to teh north end, play in small parks along teh way...take forever to get there, then go to tim hortants and have caffinated beverages....and play dirty games....we have our fun!

well well. looks like i survived the night on the town by myself!!!oh yeah... man i got back from the kathedral about 30minutes ago....i have never had teh shit kicked out of me like taht before! it was great!!!... but heres a detiled look (sorry novel) of my day.....

so here i am at main station, as soon as i walked in the station i could hear my happy keyboard man.he's this guy who everytime i see, is smiling...he used to make my morning, every single morning in grade 7 i would come up the stairs, buy my breckfast, (which akways was a bag of chips. usually ketchup.) but was always similing. its hard to describe the feeling i had when i heard rge keyborad. a smile instentaly came to my face.

well im on the subway again. spent the afternoon with bryn. we had fun. just like old times.her dad didnt even reconize me. but who could blame him?

i'm supposed to be going to this show with brandi, but she's sick and can't come. so im off to see a bunch of cool bands by myself. i dont mind. i'm surprisingly very comfortable going by myself its not like theres much talking going on. i can meet people there, no problems. it was so nice to see bry again. nothings changed between us. it was great, we walked around and chilled in her basement...when we were walking i noticed that somethings are so different but yet so the same.. wilkinson hasnt changed a bit. just walking through the sides streets that i knew so well, just had so much caracter. you could feel the multicultrelism in the are. theres just so much to see on one cornor. everything is just so picturesquest..

just standing here waiting for the train, i feel like im in a movie. so much is happening around me, a saxaphone is playing in the background. then here i am just standing here. with my thoughts the loudest, but yet no one can hear tehm. just me alone with $30, a pen, paper, and a desire to have fun....10 minutes until the concert starts. but im going to be late because i've yet to get my ticket home! ohwell! jersey, sloppy meat eaters dont come on till later. i hope i dont get there too late.

i love this, just ridding on the subway writting whatever my pen spurts out, in the past couple of months i've been writting alot, mostly on the blog, but i havent written any poetry in a while. oh well i cant force it.
well union is coming up soon, so i better start paying attention. my adventure has just begun!!!!!!!

well my adventure is nearing an end. its midnight and i'm on the subway back to union station. i am so happy. i feel like i've had the shit kicked out of mem and probably look like it too.
i have big bruises and welts all over my body, not to mention the swelling! and i have a doctors appointment at the hospital! im not abused i swear!

well where should i start? "well start at the begginging and finish at the end!"--alice in wonder land...

well on the way there i had this amazing sense of freedom. i could do whatever i wanted. i've never felt like that before in my life. well im at union now so i'll finish this on the train...

so i'm sitting on the GO train. now where was i?....on the way to the kathedral i stopped a couple of times to put stuff i REALLY need in my pockets (wallet, inhaler, money, keys, phone numbers) so that if my stuff did get stolen, then it wouldnt really matter. i'd be a little cold, but hey if i really wanted to im sure some nice homeless person would share they're sleeping bag with me. so when i got there the ticket guy was flirting with me, which i got a kick out of.....

hahah, renee's getting really tired and sore, so if you want the rest of the story i'll type it up tommorow, before i head over to the hospital....but oh the story is just getting good!!! espically if you care to know what kind of lovely injurys i got!!! but more on that later.

hey hey all...i just got back from a fun time time with alley, danielle and cyncora...it all started off with me and alley and danielle meeting at the mcdonalds...then we went to the park to play for a while...then we went to the convenice store, and bought a lot of candy!! then we were hanging out in the parking lot...which was fun, because i brought out the goodnight desamonda (good morning juliet) which is a play, so i started reciting it as i had nothing else to do...then we decided to go back to the park where we met cyncora...we went over to the track and lit some candles i brought, where danielle decided that it would be a good idea to burn/melt gummybears!!! look what you started!!!! but we had good times... a couple of guys walked past and said" ohh look theyre into the whichcraft!" yeah ok tahts great sonny....but yeah then i decided that it was about time taht alley learned how to play handball, so we went over to the school to play...these 2 guys comeover and ask if we've got anysmokes..no, so instead of leaving they stay and watch us...okay fine...then another guy comes over, and they try to start crap. then a 4 guy comes over and they threw some lumber over at us to get our attention, and really start to pick something with us...then they asked us if we knew any oral tricks.....(you dont want to know how many guys have asked me bluntly for head....) soo i look at my watch and say hey guys i gots to be getting home soon, so we left, becuase i was getting that intustion..so we left and decided to go tresspass on the bridge that theyre almost done building, so me and cyncora walk a little faster than alley and danielle, because i dont think atht they really wanted to be there...then we we got right next to the underpass, i thought i heard voices, and i got that feeling taht says renee get the fuck outa there...so we turned around....(what im amazed at is that cyncora came and hungout with us! i've been getting to know him better, which is cool) then we went back to DO'C, and played on the swings...then we went to pizza pizza...man thiose fries are good!!! but then danielles mum drove us home...and i was singing quitly to myself, adn i guess chris was listening, and he just goes "thats twice!"twice what? "twice taht i've heard you sing!" okay then i sing all the time, this shouldnt be very hard to chatch me doing this...

on another note, me, alley and danielle decided that if we were to combine the three of us together, we would have a super good looking woman! on my body, combinding alley adn danielles cheasts, and giving me some ass. then i would have the hourglass figure. we're leaving my nose as it is.( i have a good nose?!?) we're giving me danielles lips, a mixture of mine and alleys eyes...my eye lashes.. danielles checks...danielles hair..
maybe eventually i'll do that on my computer and will post this picture...it should be rather humourous....
we also figured out that if chris shaved his legs, got rid of the side burns, had natural hair coulor. and lost the eyebrow ring he would be a great looking pretty boy....but if he ever did this, i think i'd cry!

i have my glasses back. its funny to see my self with them on again. i missed my glasses....

i've decided that i'm going to drop this fake idoit act that i thought was me...im going back to mychildhood. well see i was real in toronto, i did what i felt was right, i didnt give a shit...allie kept me real. she knows what im made of, and she wont let me forget it...and ive been talking to her recently and she reminds me of who i was, and i miss the old me...but im a fake because, i did drugs, adn smoked. which i know deep down isnt me, so im stopping.l complaing about how shitty life is, thats not me either, sports is me....
allie makes me realize who i am...she reminds me that i am strong, and no matter what i will pull through...and taht i am nice and forgiving, she also reminds me that i love to play sports, that the most important things i learn while playing... and that i should be pround of myself....if it werent for her, i'd be stuck, but im going back...go back to the original. before ajax.im going to back to not complaining so much, and not giving up on my dream. i will play and i'll be happy...and i'm not going to loose sight of that. no matter what these doctors tell me. i'm going to go back on my carbs diet, im going to start playing whatever i can...whenever i can...gotta do the things i love, and make me feel good...bring back the sports, and saying whatever i feel. m going to do whats best for me, because i cant do dick all for others until i get my shit together...im going to go back to never giving up on my friends...im bring bryn back into my life....im getting better, and mostly thanks to allie, for reminding me who i really am...
and getting back in to school... so i hope that i have your guys support on this...because i might need it...
well all and all im going to let you guys go.

hey, i just got back from swimming with my sister...man i havent done taht in a long time...but i over did it, so i'm bring back the sling for tonight, so that i dont hurt it....but i lost my rythym!!! damn it! so i still have to work on alot of things in the pool. i've decided to go back on my carbs diet, but im not going on the zone diet again!!*shakes head*
to being march the 13 has alot of anniverisaires for me..(heres another one of my lists)

1) 16 years ago my best friend was born.happy 16th allison nichol...she was my first female bestfriend. she knows the real me better than anyone else...hey only 2 more years till our 10 year anniversiare.
2) 5 years ago i got in a car accident with my mum, on our way to buy allie's b-day present...i tore my left leg muscle. and got whiplash....
3) 1 year ago me, stina, britt, alley went to the ROM
4) 1 year ago stina slept over, and we're still going on about our inside jokes from then.
5) 11 months ago i got drunk in DO'C and today is the day after, when i got my clothes back.
6)2 months ago we lost Eerik...

there are probably a lot more things taht happened on this day but i dont remember them....they arent all that important...

hey hey, i've just done a "happy horoscopes" which will be redone once a week... check yours out now!

hello all again...how's it hanging? mathewson just left my house...we went to the park, i hit a couple balls ariound, which felt good, i've still got the cleanup status...thats right i can still hit it to the green! *does a little dance* that makes me feel good, knowing that all that i've worked for, the years of practise paid off, and now i've still got it, even though i havent batted in a long time!!!
we played some handball too...man i havent played taht game since toronto....getting back to my good old days ways...
i've never hung out with just me and mathewson, it was cool...lately i've been getting to know the guys better! not complaing at all!

im talking to this guy who lives in china, and apperently i called him by his chinese name....okay whatever.......hey if that means that i can speak chinese then go me!

anyway...weird...well i suppose that i will be leaving you people for now.....for now

oh and charly when you start to pee green, you need to a) check that i still have all my lovely methilane blue, (wait a mintue taht will make you pee blue...) and b) see a doctor
and the fifth element was a SAD movie...its not my fault that i cried! i told you that they compeltly ruined it by adding taht damn love twist *sniffles* and it was sweet....shut you mouth....and also i learned how to play a new song on me volia!!! *starts playing a jig* ha, bet you didnt know that!!! anywhichway...now i'm really off to bed, after of course i feed this damn thing i call i stomac, but truly it's a monster!!!

hey one and all...
it is me......i just got back from yet another eventful night with charly and cyncora...we went to the rec center and played pool and pingpong, and fooseball.. it was good times in a small over heated room...then cyncora broke some guy named andrews board...but he got his number *wink wink* brandi looks like you have compatition with this skater dude.... then we went back to charly's house and watched a movie then we all had a talk....

hey i've figured out why i talk about toronto so much...well i miss it alot, things were so much easier back then...as long as bryn and justin were there, and we had our park, everything was fine....but the reason i really miss it is because i didnt have all this problems...i still had a funny back and torn leg muscles, but i was a kid, i still had my dreams....i could take all my aggressions out on chucks a'hoy, or darrel, or justin, and mostly on bryn...we always had our sports... i was good at them...i wasn't innocent mind you... i witnessed a shit load of things. but i always had my hockey, or swimming, wresiling, hand ball, chache chache. teaher ball....plus all of our voilent games, which im not even going to get into! but i miss toronto because i had ways to deal with my shit...i could still for the most part find some sport to do......i miss being realitivly heathly...im not complaining though......

and for you alley...i give a damn, i give a mighty big damn....alley i love you, and you know that i mean it.....i know that theres a lot of shit happening for you... and im sorry for spazing on you eariler, even though i know that that has nothing to do with anything....alley, dont isloate yourself...dont overdose either...if i've gotten this far.....you're just as strong as i am, if not stronger, and you do this....you can pull through...i believe in you, and love you....and have been giving a damn as you so bluntly put it for a long time....and i'll be damned if i give up on you now.....so please when your feeling like shit, call me and scream at me, blame me for everything...you can kick me!?!? you've done it for me, and i'll do it for you....and im seriuos here kid, i'm here for you...im your living punching bag, use me.....and remember a lot of people give a damn, (here's where i list them) me, katie, brandi, charly, danielle, stina, everyone at the benches, everyone in whitby....and not to mention dave mustane, and legolas.... so alley we love you dearly...im here for the abuse, use me damn it!

so i lied,,,i thought this suits me too well...ok really this is my last blog until i figure out what im doing and who iam in life....and who actually gives a damn.....

You're Lulu. You seem a little insensitive to those who don't know you very well, due to your cynical nature. Your mind is always thinking of things, big and small. You have a tough time of letting go of the past. You also like to bash people with plushies for fun and then fry them up with some tasty magic~! XD

Which Final Fantasy X Character would YOU be? Take the test.

*sigh* havent blogged in a long time.....too bad so sad...im really tempted to just stopp blogging and coming to the blue benches but thast another story.......last nite i went to the ozzy concert....i wont bore you with detals since no on listens to me anyway...so meh.....i think i'll stop blogging from now,,,i think i'll stop talking as well.....i'll just overdose or something...maybre i'll talk to someone of the crew alter...prolly not,,,they dont think i exist anymore anyway

so i woke up 30minutes ago....so the last time that i will explain the title of our blog....it is named the vampire chronicles after the Anne Rice series.... i do not wish to be a vampire, i wish to be a dolphin...the whole vampirism is a long going inside joke with the members of this blog....
i only speak for myself when i say that i dont believe that vampires truly exist... i repete this is an inside joke, not to be taken seriously...

on another note...in response to what someone wrote in the guestbook...everything is always changing...right now somewhere in the world is changing they're clothes...yes my bestfriends do change, but what is a bestfrined anyway? its nothing, simply a title....it does not ditictate ones actions. it means nothing, and is liable to change just like everything else... i love all my friends, and they're opinins matter a great deal to me...and yes my friends do change...they change like my emotions...
basicaly what i am getting at here is that nothing is not liable to change...even concrete, thats what we have jackhammers for right...but you apprishate what you have when you have it...because nothing lasts forever, not even concrete

and im back yet again
my heating pad smells like string beans...
i have decided not to have any kids of my own...instead i will adopt...like i did with my cat, she was horrible when i first got her, then she slowly got better. i just keept petting her and showing her love, and now she's the best, and im her favorite...if you show someone or something (pets) uncondisonal love no matter what they do, it will help them....
but back to my origanal topic, i'm going to adopt because a) i have really crapy genes. b) there are so many children out there that need to be loved and a home and someone to love. why do i need a minutre me? why not never give up on someone else's child. why not show them that they're dreams can come true...why not show them that they are like anyone else, and just as good? why not? thats what im going to do...i'm not going to pick the cutest, or the smartest. i'm going to pick the one that needs me most...

well here i am again...i think i probably post to much...oh well i dont really care...i keep having these really creepy dreams...and its weird because i never remember my dreams, but i've remembered these ones really clearly...they are so weird...actually they make me cry everytime i think about them. but i'm not going to getinto detils because i refuse to post about that sort of thing.......i just felt like writting taht....

of course i will make you feel loved stina, cause you know i do! well lets see what to blog about...well today i cleaned my house!! fun fun, you all know how i love that!!! (its sad because i go over to other peoples and clean. ask stina!) then i went to see danielle my sister! we always have a goodtime...if your ever feeling not so great about yourself, then go hang out with a little kid because they think that youre the greatest person ever to live!!! my uncle alice drove me home and we picked up charly on the way back to my place..(my uncle calls me martha, so i call him alice) and we went and called people to see if they wanted to play pool with us, but no one did. so we went anyway, and had fun...he kicked my ass at pool, but i kicked his ass at fooseball...my T.O game!!! anyway, then in the wind and rain/hail we walked up to walmart...he wanted to get an anime.bu tit wasnt there, so we bought a 2 liter pop insted...and walked back to his house which is right by the school...so it was a long walk, trying to keep eachother out of traffic...it was really funny, but also so very sad...we have good times...charly's great! he never makes me feel bad, or stupid, or anything...he's always full of compliments...like tonight for example, we were talking about school, and i told him how i can write a story and think that its amazing, and be so proud of myself, i guess...and then get 60% on it...but he likes my poetry. then i was singing on the way home, and he was just"wow renee you're really good at singing!" and i dont know it means alot to me...i like to think that i'm good at singing...well i know i dont suck, so thats something! maybe someday in the distance future, i'll have me singing on here and get some feed back...maybe, but at the moment i'm still trying to get around to haveing the picture page up and going...



well some people have been asking about the feminism thing...well here i go, i will try to explain to you how i feel about this, and such...well actually not right now, i'm not fired up enough to explain it properly, so that it makes sense to anyone but me...



what else can i say... my privicy has once again been invaded with my sister reading my blog....damn her!!! we've all made it clear, DO NOT GO TO THE BLOGS IN THE HISTORY!!! has we all like our privicy...
anyway, i've decied taht i'm quitting all drugs and alchol as of thursday...last thursday...whitby thursday...because they have messed with my brain enough... i'm coming off a strong dosage of medication, adn going on an even stronger one...it just doesnt help...i know that it does affect my relationships with other people...people that i would never want to hurt in a million years...you guys know who you are...(my bestfriends!) and i just dont like it anymore...i dont want to have to worry about all that shit. so please help me stick with my plans in times of weakness!



i've decided that in my short life time i have done some things that i ma really proud of...and now i wil list them...
1) played on a all boys team
2) over came my pain killer addiction
3) i've loved, adn will continue to do so
4) i've stuck with the french immersion
5) i've dealt with my varies problems, not always in the best ways, but hey, im getting better!
6) i've coped with losing my dream of becoming an olyimpic altheate
7) sports...what can i say, i've had some proud moments on the court/rink
8) taught 2 people how to swim
9) taught 3 people how to skate
10) i've done some good things for people...



now on to 25 more things that you don't know



1) i say 'thats cool' way too much
2) i have been mistaken for a boy, numerous times
3)my favorite hat is a mooron riverdal hospital base ball cap
4)i have never had an IV
5)i like to see who would be who in books and movies, out of my friends
6) i've been attacked by yellow jakets, and chased around while being stung by them
7) i write in here for myself and only myself
8) i spend to much time watching movies
9) i hate being by myself..too much time to think
10) i post to keep my mind occupied
11) i love to sing
12) i love to take pictures! i usually have a camera with me
13) i love to dance! (i suck though!)
14) i have very aquierd tastes
15) my socks never match, and never have
16) im very attached to jeans from the 6th grade
17) i give a lot of advice
18) i love nail polish
19) i will not stand racsisim
20) i egged my elementry school
21) i have HUGE feet and hands
22) i have 3 other peoples souls
23) i do belive in reincarnation
24) i love standing on the edge of the platform and pull back 2 seconds before the subway comes
25) i used to do some kids chinese homework for him!

well i'm done for now...see ya

so ya last night i made a trip to the dungen and i must say it was so much fun! the bands were actually good but i didn't get to see not by choice:( but i can just steal my sis cd she is getting cause she loves me and she will understand! so ya last night fully rocked stina and renne and brandi were in the mosh pit i didn't want to be broken so i decided not to go in.maybe next time but i really wanna go back. there was this quite good looking guy there and when me and stina and renee left he was outside waiting for his ride and we were sitting on the stairs by him but i just cound't get up the courage to say anything to him and now i am really pissed at my self for it. i mean the guy looked somewhat like the lead singer of alien ant farm. but hey maybe if i am lucky he will be there when we go back again. one can only hope!

yeah im pissed danielle too that we didnt talk to the hott guy. next time... its all about picking up random guys

yeah im totally up for going there again, the bands were actually good last nite. i had sooo much fun. its funny yesturday i didt feel a thing but then today i could barely lift my arms. meh, i must getting attnetion last nite was rather fun. well today was one of the lesser fun days. the pre-vacation day always sucks. plenty of packing organization and work. man not cool . its allright im soo excited about tomororw tho im making a bunch of mix tapes to take with me. puttin on the SOL and stuff today. im calling it the stina punk/ska mix. but yeah im going and shall miss u all so write me renee im looking @ u and stuff on my email. make me feel loved. renee keep on looking for shows for after i get back, that was WAY over due.
later

hello all....just got back from the dungen (sp?) it was good times!! accident prone, SOL, TOE, not by choice, and another one i dontt remember played...it was funny cause when we first got there, stina was SO hyper. and so she tried to mosh with the boys, but they wouldnt hit her! and after there was all sorts of people pointing at her, and doing the tackling lunge...it was funny...then me and brandi got in on the moshing and skanking....we met these girls Faye and Kim...faye was cool, she was all about the lets show 'em that we can do it too! cause after stina broke the whole gender barrier thing we had a girls one and this guy said"girls dont know how to mosh" something along those lines...so after us taking it out on him and him being cruel and shooting evil looks at us. cyncora went in the pit and was just following this guy around pushing him...man you make me so proud! but yeah, stina knocked him over, i got some decent shots in, so did faye and brandi...but he shot dirty looks at us all evening! it was great, i hope my pictures turn out! it was really fun! i was wearing my kilt and i had wore whit taz boxers underneith, because my skirts always somehow end up fkying up on me! so there were these black lights and my skirt flew up a couple of times, so if anyone was looking then they got a flash of purple!...well i'm sore and tired, so some one else will fill you in on the rest of our eventful night.......

hey guys...just got back fr the dungeon man it was AWESOME... i could be violent and no one would care. i even got some fan guy. it was illin... haha stupid slang. i got a cut on my lip tho.. it was gross tasting blodd. there was this big idiot guy there too and i was so proud of all who took him out. u know that guy with studded vest *angry fist* man that was so much fun...it wasnt as smokey as the chameleon either. well im needed to go to bed to work. later... be happy i posted again... tomorrow or tonties may be the last ones in a week
peace

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You're a tyrant. You like to boss people around for any reason you like, and you're damn good at it. It may be because people are scared to Hell by you, because it certainly isn't because of your charisma (or lack thereof). Cheer up! The world's full of weakling paintywaists who'll grovel for you for the rest of his life.

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I took the Inner Dragon online quiz and found out I am a White Dragon on the inside. If there ever was an apparition of balance, power and reclusive intelligence, my Inner Dragon is it. Whites are a fairly common dragon and are considered one of two harmonious dragons. My anti-thesis is the evil Black Dragon.



My Inner Dragon likes to think things out, plot against enemies, and look down upon the world from the highest mountain peaks. My favorable attributes are the Day, the Sun, truth, a positive attitude, and helpful magic. Humans only need fear me when they stray into my domain without proper tribute. Of course, that tribute would probably be a cake the size of a Volkswagen, but hey, if they wanted to move through my turf they should have brought it, right? If someone ever really wanted a fight I'd be an impressive opponent, considering I pack a breath weapon combination of Fire and Lightning. Even the nicest dragons can do some serious damage.

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the sad thing is, i didnt even cheat on this quiz...lol...silly alley

god i love how you see how i love my life there ren.....it is tiring but you get used to it, i guess...(sleeping when you should be babysitting melanie for example) lol......im just so happy,,, thanks renee for coming with me last night, im forever in debt.....it was so great that you were all comfortable with my crew.....im so happy!!!!! :)

you truly are different there than here..but i guess i was too...well in the way that i wasnt shy with these people that i have nevermet and are older than me...and i just did whatever i felt like...which was nice...no hidding anything...not that i have much to hide anyway...well actually i hide just about nothing, at least one person always knows...but i don't know how offen i'd beable to do that. it sure does take alot out of you...talk about a tiring lifestyle...i don't think i could handle it! i dont know how you did all that time..al you were always falling down, and i was singing, with my eyes clothes...i think i was strutting for a while there...what a night....

i found a note that i wrote to myself, saying "blog about your nose." now if i didnt know what i was talking about then you might be questioning me..(im sure you are anyway) but yeah, this week i've had 3 people talk to me about my nose...on 3 different occasions...according to some they really do like my nose....i thought that it was just kind of funny that in the same week 3 people commented on something that i've had all my life, it hasent change at all...i dont know.....im bored and have the power to babble...well i'm going to go play javanoid....

well im thrilled that i have shown renee my life in whitby...im really different there..lol....she'll tell ya that.lol it was just so funny, cause i suddenly decided i wanted to see pip and and stace and the whitby crew and so as renee desribed it was quite an adventure....2 hour walk...my legs really hurt....it was so funny just the whole situation, walking all through downtown shitby (the hometown)!!!!for hours than when we get to pips, we find out we have to go to staceys and we walk there...and get smashed within ten minutes...(whole bottle of wine to myself) :) appartley i fell down numerous times, and i remeber just laughing,,,it was good to be home again, and i think renee really did enjoy herself which means......WERE GONNA THIS ALOT!!!!!
*giggle giggle* its good to be back

hello all.at the moment i'm in Whibity at stacey's house...oh last night was an adventure....so alley calls me and tells me that we're going to whibity to visit pip..so after a long debate and the schrounging pof the money...so we run to get a bus, missed it of course, so we waited for about 20minutes, got on the next one and we geted dropped off in downtown whibity...so we go on a really long walk...it lasted over 2hours...lit was freaking far...and i'm not exagerating either. so we had to cross this river/stream...that was interesting, we had to take a running start, and i made it and alley did too, but barely! oh that was funny..so we got to pips house, adn man he has a nice water bed!!! then we ewent over to staceys house, and there were quite a few people here..what more can i say besides i love my hard liquer!!! so yeah i was very drunk all night..then we went back to the kid that she was babysittings house and played asshole...called my mum told her that i was sleeping over at someones house...and drank some more! but heres a first, i didnt dance like a skank!!! are you all very proud of me? alley was! i must say that i am..and i managed to keep all my clotheing on too! theres a fis\rst for everything. alley has intructed me to write about her so i will. she kept falling down! it was a picture....heehee i have pip's cat thingy...oops! well it was goodtimes that were well needed by the both of us....but sero\iously the adrenaline from this miny adventure was amazing! oh we played many a games of asshole! well lastnight was fun, i hope that everybody else had as good a time as i..

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man finally out of skool... man i just went insane with those quizzes man are they great... not always me but hey. so on sun i will be leaving on a jet plane im so excited... if only i actually tanned. i think we are going to the concert tomorrow imreally excited. i havent been in forever. we better find rides soon. well i dont have nehting of much importance to say now... maynbe ill thihnk of things later... tee hee im wearing a sweater vest!!

I Am A: Chaotic Evil Dwarf Druid Cleric


Alignment:
Chaotic Evil characters are the most 'evil' people out there. They are willing to do anything to get ahead, and will kill anyone who stands in their way. A chaotic evil person sees no value in order and governments, and believes to the utmost in the tenant that 'Might Makes Right'.


Race:
Dwarves are short and stout, and easily recognizable by their well-cared-for beards. They are hard workers, and adept at stonework and engineering. They tend to live apart from other races; generally in deep, underground excavated systems, and as such tend to be distant from other races.


Primary Class:
Druids are a special variety of Cleric who serves the Earth, and can call upon the power in the earth to accomplish their goals. They tend to be somewhat fanatical about defending natural settings.


Secondary Class:
Clerics are the voices of their God/desses on Earth. They perform the work of their deity, but this doesn't mean that they preach to a congregation all their lives. If their deity needs something done, they will do it, and can call upon that deity's power to accomplish their goals.


Deity:
Abbathor is the Neutral Evil dwarven god of greed. He is also known as the Great Master of Greed, the Trove Lord, and the Avaricious. His followers believe in the gaining of riches and wealth by any means necessary. Their preferred weapon is the dagger. Abbathor's symbol is a jeweled dagger.


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hello...well am i the only one who posts here?!? hey i don't really care...its not like my posting is affected by others....well at the moment i am supposed to be at the school working on the set for the musical, but i couldn't take anymore today...damn lack of medication!@#$%^$@ damn emotions...i don't know which i like better feeling dead, where nothing affects me.(which also includes happiness) or being able to feel a little all to well...i'm going to go with the latter, because last time i felt dead, it wasnt a nice feeling, so i'm just going to try to work with these things we humans are cursed with, and my damn mood swings....meh...i've been talking to a lot of people that i haven't talked to in a long time......
well on another note, scott if you are reading this, i will call you about trying to figure out how to unshake things and we must work on this time travel...we must get back to the present!!!

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well today wasn't a very fun day...but whatever...i just got back from charlys house...we rented mentomoes...something like that....it was a GOOD movie!! and we rented dutes....we had a snow ball fight in the parking lot....goodtimes...we also got the squirril out of his basement....

well as you know me and keith are no longer together...please be nice and support him...calling him names isn't going to make me feel any better, so yeah...

i just read the thing for GERALD its so me!! the hair and everything well thats it for me lates

i read my last blog... sorry about the typos!! hopefully u can get the just of it

You are Gerald! Well aren't you cool. And a good best friend. A little superficial? Well come on, the hair IS pretty important. take the what hey arnold! character are you? test

hey i havent posted in forever.... im so confused i was talking to allwy... once again nick has me confused... but newayt renee i wish i had something to say. being the person i am in relationships im not sure how to offer advice. its hard for u and keith. uve been together forever. but maybe it is time to let go and grow for this expersiene. i dont expect u to get over it right away. but there is a light at the end of every tunnel despite how hopeless life feels. i miss you smiling. *hugs* see ywah tomorrow!!
merrick

im here just as you are. im talkingto someone i haven't talked to in months. i'm wearing pants that still fit me exactly the same as they did in grade six. i'm listening to the dwarves. i can't find the lyrics to all. to sit comfortably i have to unbotton the the botton on my jeans. i'm listening to a tape full of love songs/ kind of...i have silver spraypaint on my hands.i wish that i had funky coloured hair.my friend thinks that i'm great. last night i slept in the same bed as my mom. i hate my civics class. i love my auto class because either i feel really smart or really dumb.today was a smart day. today i was reading a magizine and i saw a smily face condom. i need to paint my nails. i don't think that many people read this blog.i dont care if anyone reads this because this is where i get out what i'm thinking sometimes. its one of the few places that i can express my self. and i don't care weather people think that i bitch topo much on here, or that its too depressive.i've got to get it out somehow...i'm not allowed to go to bed until 9pm.one week until my first female bests friend turns 16. i'm talking to bryn and thats it...i like chips and dip...i've been thinking about her everynight. does she every think about me? cause she's always on my mind. does everythink about me? i like to sing....i;m always singing...i've cometo the point where i can sing in front of my friends and people that i don't really know and not care...i've also decided that my singing voice isn't as bad as it could be...i can't let you go, i've built my world around you, what do you think about me and you???
we've got to figure it out tonight....you and me gota stupid kind of love...stupid in everyway.....you say tomotateo, i say beefjerky....
anyway, my keyboard has a health warning on it...i'ma hopeless romantic... i'm actually not, but i like sweet little things...like little surprises.kinder surprise toys...i'm clingy... i'm full of apologizes....i love hugs...i know some people who give great hugs! i tackle nick everytime i see him in the halls, but if i'm in a bad mood or need a hug,, then i ambush him...i like to tackle people....i used to be amazing at it...i used to be pretty good at a lot of things...i wasn't amazing at sports, but i got by...i'm a hypocraite...i suck at speaking french...i suck at verbs, but i love the way the language sounds...i love the way mme. milot talks, but i hate the way mme.driscoll talks...scott is the highlight of civics class...i'll get far without you, i'll pull it off somehow. you're th only place in my heart i call home....i don't know what to say to you, the words all come out wrong. what would i say to you, so i sing my song....i wish i could write lyrics....good ones anyway...i love this tape...i might be seeing bryn on the break...that would be cool....whe you see me walk away, and something inside you breaks.maybe thats the first time that we ever felt the same.....at the moment alley is confessing that she hates me...i think she's joking...she better be, or i'll, i'll , i'll hug her?!? she would hate me for that...and now i'm talking about sex aith bryn...i'm talking about sex baby, i'm talking about you nad me. i'm talking about all the good things and the bad things taht could be. lets talk about sex...i'm talking with bryn like we always did...its great... and i'd do anything for you, and i would die for you, and i'd do anything for you...we first time we kissed it was like magic. and i know that your the only girl for me, your the girl in my dreams... good news alley forgives me!!!for what i'm not sure...but hey, its all good in my books...wow i've been typing about nothing for a long time now

ok im done now love ya all!

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